I Could Fall

Nobody could hurt me like I know she could hurt me
But there's nothing in this world that I want more
Nobody could take me to the places that she takes me
Places that I've never been before
With my eyes wide open knowing full well

I could fall from heaven
I could fall from heaven
I could fall I could brake that's the chance that I take
I could fall

Look at me I'm flying, just a breath away from dying
Holding on to her and letting go
As I walk across this wire above a lake of fire
And lean into the wind that starts to blow
With my eyes wide open knowing full well

Do I hide my heart? Do I lock my door?
Do I tear it out so it don't feel no more?
No, I risk it all knowing that I could fall from heaven
I could fall from heaven
I could fall
Fall, fall

*** Love you, Sayang :P

Twinkle twinkle little stars

Starlight cinema was triple fun. The ambiance was friendly. The sky was bright and starry. The movies were good. Dan jelas [unlike wayang layar mase kat STF dulu]. Takde backache sgt pun .Yeay. And my girls, they are the best. Couples were everywhere. Romance was in the air la. Heh. Altho we lack the suasana romantik [haha], but nevertheless it was great. Sgt seronok. The Last Samurai- worthy of 2nd time watching. Bes. The much anticipated Troy is evidently good. Sharel gave "2 thumbs up" [along with "an absolute performance" and "the greatest movie ever made" and "a straight 5" hehe]. As for me, it was, well.. good. Bes la. Brad Pitt looks terlalu groomed sgt tapinye. He looks more like a prince than a warrior with that regularly-facial-ed face and manicured nails. A killing machine should look more, well, ganas.. Rough. Heh. I like Archilles' character, but I like Hector's better. Ooh Eric Bana. "I live my life by three rules: Honour your God. Love Your Woman. And fight for your country."
Huwargh!!! Suke!!! Heh. Err, outdated nye komentar.
Ok Mira, starlight cinema bes. Heh.

My heartbeat



My boifren is my mood elevator: He is the reason I could soar up up above the sky. And he is also the reason I could sink down down below the ground. Hehe. It's true when they say 'only the one who you love so much can make you hurt as much.' Haha. Miss you, my mood elevator. Come home!! :P

Starlight Starbright



This Saturday, me and the girls are going to the Starlight Cinema in Bukit Kiara. Yippee. Great company+good movies with hotties in it [we're going to watch The Last Samurai and Troy. Woohoo.]-- how more perfect could it be?!! [perhaps if my bf ade, tapi Dod dah warning, this is strictly a girls night, and my bf tadepon. Heh.]-- mintak tolak hujan [NO!!!!] and hopefully takkan saket blkg or kalo saket, hopefully I'll be able to be tak malu and baring. Heh. Hey, they said 'bring anything that can make you feel comfortable' right? Heh. Bantal counts la. Anyway, looking fwd untuk this weekends- starlight cinema, tgk AF show ulangan at Aniz's, and accompanying Far to her beautiful cousin's engagement. Yeay. Bizi and enjoyable weekends.

Me Myself And I



Body issues. Tipula kalau kata tak pnh ade masalah dgn self image. Obses. Women do it all the time. But there is a huge different between 'tak puas ati&letting go' and 'self loathing&losing self confidence'.

Body Dysmorphic Disorder (BDD), according to Marie Claire, is a mental disorder associated with self image- asek tgk cermin, or worse, avoiding it. Going to great lenghts to cover flaws. Seeking surgery. Asek mentioning the flaws. Excessive grooming. Becoming anti-social due to the flaws. Etc etc. So, do u suffer from BDD?

"Byknye mende kat muke." "Hitamnye rase arini." "I wish I could be taller." "Please go away, dear baby fat." Sometimes stupid and ungrateful thoughts camni datang. Tak bes. I love myself. There is more to life than merely being vain. If I have Beyonce's perfect figure, Charlize Theron's perfect skin, Jen Aniston's perfect mane, Lindsay Lohan's perfect smile, I'd have flawless image. But I am still not PERFECT. Sumoerg ade defects. I have learned that instead of whining endlessly pasal flaws yg Tuhan dah bagi ni,
we should count our blessings.

Despite constantly reminding myself to bersyukur, I sometimes takleh kawal diri. Sbb ada masa2 yang ideal body image terkesan ke atasku, ada masa2 jeles dgn pompuan2 cantek dalam tv and mag, atau mase2 PMS, and during these times, great girl friends like mine, helps. Avoid urself from toxic friends. The kind yg kalau tau kite benci rase skinny, die saje je cakap "Eee kurusnye ko skrg. Aneroxic ke?" or kalau tau kite hari2 suffer from diet, she will go "Sihatnye ko. Makan tido je ke cuti ni?" Woohoo jauhkan diri anda dari mereka.

I don't know where my writing is leading to. Haha. But since many mags are discussing on body issues this month, I felt compelled to do so as well. Haha. Well, as Aniz aforementioned, we know we are beautiful, and we need no beauty pageant or anything of that sort to prove it. Allah telah jadikan kite dgn kelebihan dan kekurangan masing2. Love yourself. Eat well. Flaunt your better facets. Self aceptance is crucial. Think beautiful!

What's a sun-dial without the sun?



AF2. Concert 2. No elimination. A pleasant show. Some sang painstakingly, but overall, gratifying performances. I second my own previous opinion, Kaer is still my fave. He sang Ikhlas Tapi Jauh beautifully. Kudsia even predicted that he is going to finish in front. Jangan besar kepala tapinye. Bob sang Anwar Zain's Jgn Bersedih Lagi effortlessly. Zahid has very nice tone. My mom even voted for him tonite. Farah is very lively.. too cheeky for her own good I guess. Low ur key sketla, girl. Comel. Vokal bes. Tapi undi sikit. Why is that? Recheck and rebalance. And, Adam=cuteness. Yeay.

Happy Happy Joy Joy

An untroublesome registration day. Massive rain, thus tade org sgt, and reg went smooth. The nite before, we celebrated Naem's birthday. Mazia did her job as 'Naem's stealer' well while we prepared the surprise party. The higlight of the evening is the fight between Far and Dod over a bundle of UNO cards mase main SNAP. Haha. Madness. Ooh and who can forget insiden Dod menjatuhkan kek. As Far put it, that was poetic justice, Dod. Heh. We are now a bunch of indoor games freak. I hereby declare my goodself as Juara Congkak. Smlm lawan Far dari Asar sampai tgh mlm (stopped for dinner je). Yes, that crazy. Main SNAP tahap lawan jerit dgn guys yg tgk bola kat bachelor pad depan umah kami. Heh. Watched byk sgt chick flicks, thanks to Dod. Lindsay Lohan is babelicious eh?! And I love 13 Going On 30. Candy sweetness. Minus classes plus good friends equal to FUN!

"Remember, we all stumble, every one of us. That's why it's a comfort to go hand in hand."
Emily Kimbrough

Tomorrow I am going back to Shah Alam. Am picking up Far at KLIA. Meeting her again after series of somewhat depressing days is like having a cooling, refreshing shower after a hot, tiring day. Uhm uhm mood lifting.

TQ Far for always being there for me, thru my Bapak's sickness, my romance life craziness [hehe je t'aime beaucoup, boifren!!] etc etc. Irma Kurtz told us girls that "Good friends lend each other strenght and increase mutual esteem, but they never, ever reinforce insecurity in each other." Well, in that case, Far is simply the bestest friend [oh like I don't already know].

School's starting! And of course, as always, before all the hanky panky lectures, tuto classes, studying for tests & xms, burying our faces into law books [yea right] etc etc.. girls days out!!!! Can't wait to go crazee with you girls again! je m'ennuie de vous, des filles!!!

Mimpi Yang Sama


Back L-R: Linda. Nurul. Farah. Edlin. Zarina. Mas.
Front L-R: Fitri. Adam. Bob. Anding. Zahid. Kaer.

Yesterday's Akademi Fantasia 2 concert was actually a good one. 1st week, and yet, all of them sang pretty well. The critics are too nice though. Bosanla. Someone mean like Simon or Roslan Aziz [for Msian Idol] is refreshingly good, and of course, entertaining.

Some people said Fitri looks like my bro. Haha. Ye ke? Maybe. He dances well, Kudsia even called him 'Usher with hair'. But, it's either lagu tu tak sesuai, or he can't really sing. Adam is many gal's fave simply because of his boyish cuteness and suara macam Yusry. Bob, si suare merdu yang sangat bossy. Ooh je n'aime pas bossiness!!! Awie jahat!! Die kata BOB stands for Badan Org Besar. He even told Zahid to slim down. Oh yea yea, like you're so tough or what. Haha. Farah has beautiful hair. Nurul is very petite [150 cm, 37 kg]. Mas has cute, bubbly character. Edlin is a cry baby. I like Zarina's version of Kris Dayanti's Mencintaimu. Anding looks somewhat like someone I used to have a crush on. Even all 3 judges cakap die hensem. Ye ke?! Zahid is very playful, very confident. Most of them are confident sebenanye. Linda, the current most popular, is my dad's personal fave. And as for me, my fave performance for yesterday's show goes to Kaer with Glenn's Januari. I like!!!!

Not life, but good life, is to be chiefly valued [Socrates]

My Bapak was discharged from HKL this afternoon. Syukur alhamdulillah. Hepi hepi hepi. I just knew that although the heart attack on last Monday was a mild one, the doctor told my dad that the chance of life vs death was actually 50-50. MasyaAllah.. I could have lost my beloved dad [Nauzubillah]. Alhamdulillah, Allah masih panjangkan usia Bapak, beri peluang Yanti tunjuk Yanti sayang Bapak sangat3. This coming Father's Day is going to be a great one I hope. Sape rase nak makan buah.. jemputla ke rumah Am. I could open a fruit stall. Sangat banyak buah-buahan!!!! TQ: families and friends yang sangat2 caring and thoughtful and baik sgtla [mwahs sume!], esp Dod and Aniz yang dtg melawat Bapak [how thoughtful :-)] Am hepi! But it's actually a bittersweet day.. I am demam. And, Boifren!!! Nape ni Sayang???!!

I love my Bapak..
And so does everybody.

My dad was transfered to HKL this morning.. to Coronary Care Unit. I cried for the 1st time mase cakap ngan my boifren tadi [sori boifren, i was hard on you, i know u'd understand.. mwahs! hehe] My bro pon nangis mase cakap with my dad tadi. Heh. It's not that bad.. tapi ye la.. parents kite kan.. kalau demam terok sikit pon kite risau.. ini pulak kene duduk dalam intensive care camtu. Org kata, nak tau whether or not we are loved, mase saket2 ni la. Well, my Bapak is a living version of the phrase "Do unto others like you want others to do unto you." Obviously, he is blessed with people who love him so so much.. tak putus2 orang datang.. families, friends, kawan2 keje and anak2 buah from ofis. My Pak Ngah even cried for his baby bro. Heh. My Bapak dalam saket2 tu bole melawak lagi "Besnye saket, Ibu urut2 and care for me all the time, Yanti suap makan.. selalu asek ngadap tv je" Haha. Bapak.. bapak.. Tak suke tgk die lying weak like that. I miss my Bapak. Be well soon, dearest Bapak..

I love my Bapak

My dad was admitted to ward this morning due to sesak2 nafas, lalu ke klinik and was referred to the hosp, dan selepas didiagnosis oleh Doctor [yang comel], ia adalah disbbkan high cholestrol and hence, membawa kepada kekacauan jantung. Bapak bapak.. no more daging and rokok after this. His condition is not that bad, but he has to stay at the hospital for further observation and thorough check up.. but sure I am concerned and worried. Pray for my dad, ok peeps. And for Sharel's mom as well.. I hope she's getting better there in Bangkok.. Lets hang in there together, buddy :-)

The Non-Devils Who Wear Prada

Today was my last day at work. Sedey sedey. Things are getting familiar amat, dan tamatla pulak my attachment. But I'm not complaining.. hehe. As I will enjoy the rest of my cuti at home. My bosses are simply the nicest. They offered me to do my chambering at their law firm nanti. Bes bes. I'm going to miss work. The borak2 session I had with my Bapak on our way to and back from work. The nice Abg Shahrul who never cease to entertain me with his never ending stories. The work loads. The familiarness of my ofis. And esp the renting book store near my ofis where I spent my RM every 2 days. Hehe. But back to skool is fun too!! Yeay! Final semester for degree. Meeting my friends again.. yeay yeay! I esp miss you, my 8 angels! Can't wait to see you girls. And ooh, I got my 1st unexpected pay check *grin*. Talk about being flabbergasted :-)

Masih (Sahabatku, Kekasihku)
Ada Band

Rasa Cinta yang dulu telah hilang
Kini berseri kembali
Telah ku coba lupakan dirinya
Hapus cerita lalu

Dan lihatlah
Dirimu bagai bunga di musim salju
Yang tersenyum menatap indahnya dunia
Yang sering menyambut
Jawaban segala gundahmu

Walau badai menghadang
Ingatlah ku kan selalu setia menjagamu
Berdua kita lewati
Jalan yang berliku tajam

Resah yang kau rasakan
Kan jadi bagian hidupku bersamamu
Letakkanlah segala lara di pundakku ini
S'tiap waktu wajahmu yang lugu
Selalu ilhami langkahku

Telah lama kunanti dirimu
Tempat ku kan berlabuh
Cahaya hatiku
Yakinlah kan kekal abadi selamanya
Seperti bintang yang sinarnya terangi
Seluruh ruang di jiwa
Membawa kedamaian

*** I love this song. I could die disebabkan happiness yang melampau if ada org would sing it to me. Hehe.

Great Men

Many ppl like to read the stories of the lives of great men. Saye juge. I read on great law reformers among which are Henry Boustead (1200-1268), judge pertama yg make law into science and cakap "The King is under no man, but under the God and law" [sgt berani]; Sir Edward Coke (1552-1634) yg telah di described as "what Shakespeare has been to literature, what Bacon is to philosophy, what the translators of the authorised version of Bible have been to religion, Coke has been to public & private law of England." Yea bravo. Lagi, Sir William Blackstone (1723-1780) who studied too long and too much; took no exercise sbb he hated it; ate too much, got fatter and fatter; died at 57. Next is Lord Brougham (1778-1868), judge yang dabbled in science, politics, lit, law, everything, and was desribed as 'magnificent oddity'. Woohoo. And of course, everyone's fave, Lord Denning. I like him too, as he is so good in his writing, sgt suke menulis [his books are good, altho baru baca 3 je], the way die fikir and gave precedents mmg bijak sgt2 la, tapi lets read pasal my new idol.

Lord Mansfield (1705-1793)

Die hated law books. Founder of commercial law [which I like]. He infused equity and good conscience into the rigid formulae of law [brilliant tak?]. Die was the 1st yg menegaskan pasal freedom of religion, yg pada mase tu sume org kecam la, but now.. jadi one of our rights kan. The great Lord Mansfield wrote no law books, or other books, but he was very very eloquent. He made speeches. And he was known as 'the great Lord Mansfield'. Ooh my idol.