"A mother's love for her child is like nothing else in the world. It knows no law, no pity, it dares all things and crushes down remorselessly all that stands in its path." - Agatha Christie
InsyaAllah, do pray for us :) I am currently in my 20th week of pregnancy, all praise to Allah. Doesn’t feel much different from the one with Hadi but with a toddler in tow, this time around is naturally more tiring. You don’t get to nap or rest whenever you want to, because rest assured, the moment you lie down to rest is the exact time your toddler will be asking for food or milk, or bugging you for some toys he couldn’t find, or to read him a book, anything lah. Hehe. Nevertheless it is such a blessing that my current job comes with flexible hours and some other perks; well it should, considering the Boss is the one who knocked me up. Ngeee.
This pregnancy is not much different, yet emotionally, it is so different in a way that well, I’ve done this before - I’ve been through the pregnancy exhaustion and elation, the excruciating birth pain, the sleepless nights of attending to a helpless newborn, the breastfeeding battle, the joy of shopping for tiny thingies, the precious heavenly smell of a newborn – and I am excited and berdebar at the same time to repeat the process all over again.
I still am not quite sure how things are gonna work out – will Hadi cooperate? With a newborn’s constant obsession with boobies’ milk, how do I make sure Hadi won’t feel neglected? Will I be tired all the time? Will our tiny home be comfy enough for all the four of us? Now that I will have two khalifahs entrusted by Allah, should I quit my office job and work from home so that I can watch my babies grow up before my eyes? With Hadi’s need for my ketiak, how is the sleeping arrangement gonna be? Do I pantang at my mom’s place or just settle at my own abode and borrow MIL’s bibik for a month? I still have half away to go to think about all this anyway. Right now, I shall enjoy this pregnancy and pray to the Almighty; sempurnakan dan permudahkanlah, Ya Rabb.
One thing for sure, it is true what they say, that a woman does not know her capacity to love until she has a child and that is how I feel with my Hadi. And now I’m feeling the immediate and growing love for this cantaloupe-size baby growing and kicking inside me. That’s the awesome thing about a mother’s love, there’s always room for more :')