Oh my. Hampir sebulan tidak menulis di sini? That must be some sort of a record kan? No, I don't blame the new man in my life who has taken over most of my time, sebab I actually have plenty of time to kill setiap kali dia tidur siang - babies sleep a lot during daytime and they tend to berjaga nak susu/cuddle/main di waktu malam, a plot I think they all agreed on in heaven - "Jom kita berjaga di malam hari untuk uji kesabaran ibu kita, jom?" Huhu. Anything for you, Hadi.
I have been meaning to share the anecdotes of what happened on the day Hadi was born.
Oooh the warm fuzzy feeling I had the first time Hadi looked into my eyes. The nikmat of breastfeeding him for the very first time. The first 5 days Hadi had to spend in the hospital nursery under observation for his rapid breathing. Servis yang sungguh baik oleh all the Johor Specialist doctors, nurses and staffs. And yeah, the shock I had when I learned about the hospital bill Hubby had to fork out. Yes I have been meaning to write a proper entry on all that but it's been more than a month dan terasa seperti tidak relevan sudah sebab terlalu banyak sudah perubahan hidup ever since. Abridged version cukuplah.
I want to share beberapa perkara that I think are must-haves untuk sebulan pertama kehidupan seorang bayi but I guess I'll do that in another entry, perhaps later today (kalau masih kemaruk sangat nak menulis, that is) Right now sangat banyak perkara berlegar-legar dalam kepala and some of those perkara adalah sangat tidak menyeronokkan.
Like the fact my maternity leave is soon coming to an end and I have to resume work yikes! And with that comes another problem, that is childcare. I am, seperti kebanyakan working mom, reluctant to leave my baby to be taken care of by someone else. Adoi sedihnya! I want my mom to care for my baby but my parents live 3 hours away from us. The mother in law is the next in line but I don't want to burden her as she has enough on her plate; if I have no other choice, we have to get a maid pronto to help MIL out as caring for babies perlukan masa, tenaga dan kesabaran! Dan jika tidak, our only option is nursery. Oh my, sedihnya nak tinggalkan kat nursery! Tapi most mothers pun tinggal anak at nursery as early as 2 months kan? I'm sure it's tough and I'll cry sebab kesiankan dia, but c'est la vie lah kan?
Oh and I am so sad about leaving my parents' place; seronoknya dekat dengan parents sendiri. Terlalu. Sedihnya I have to leave them soon; they must terasa sangat sunyi nanti without me and baby Hadi, they're crazy about him. And I like having my parents around! Isk sedihlah.
Like I said, banyak sangat perkara tak seronok invading my otak sekarang. Sungguh tak bagus, tambah-tambahan I'm still in confinement, nanti jadi postnatal depression pula nauzubillah. One thing I am sure of, I am madly in love with my darling Hadi, and that love alone, never fails to make me feel all better. Now I'm gonna stop writing and continue berfikir-fikir tak seronok. But before that, I'm gonna go kiss my son's sweet cheek. Aaah the yummiest.