“If men got pregnant: Maternity leave would last for two years with full pay.”
I just don’t get it why some people feel the need to make unnecessary derogatory comments like, “Besarnya perut kau. Chubby betul kau sejak pregnant ni. Takut aku tengok,” or “Kenapa aku tengok perut kau kecil sangat? Tak normal betul. Makanlah banyak sikit, kesian baby.” Haish. Either way pun, these types of people will never be pleased, ada saja tak kena. Susah-susah saja nak reka komen menyakitkan hati. Doakanlah saja aku. If you have nothing nice to say to me, you should just keep your comments to yourself, thank you very much.
I know most people meant well, but I’m not really a fan of unsolicited advice. I mean, kalau advice suruh makan kurma, baca Al-Quran, take vitamins regularly, itu tak apa. Ini advice jenis nak melawan tak puas hati dengan keputusan yang aku buat.
Like when I told this ‘senior’ friend of mine about my decision to bersalin in JB but go back to Banting for pantang; punyalah banyak dia membebel against that decision. I know she meant well, tapi sebelum aku buat decision, tentulah aku dah fikir all the pros and cons, dah tanya my mom and other experienced moms, dah read a lot bla bla bla. Tak perlulah aku nak justify my decision to semua orang kan? Aku bukan Darjah 6. Haish.
I’m generally OK with belly-touching by family members, friends or even acquaintances angkat kening. But strangers?! That’s a whole new level of weird-lah. But apparently the girl from the music store we went to yesterday thought it was an OK thing to do; she touched my belly in a poking sort of way and asked, “Kembar ke, kak?” Terkejut aku dengan sentuhan orang asing. But I managed a small chuckle, said “Taklah” and lari away from her. Awkward!
Excuse my toxic ramblings. Like I’ve tweeted earlier, I’m feeling strangely hot and bothered today. And so so berat sometimes. Kepala got headache some more. And yeah, it is not helping that I am swamped with berlambak-lambak-lambak cases to work on before I leave for my maternity leave. Seriously berlambak. Haish. Tapi semua itu my responsibility, I know, and I’ll do my best to finish off what I can. But with kerenah Court yang beyond my control, colleagues tak faham bahasa yang nak taichi more cases to me, irritating demanding clients; sometimes aku tak boleh tahanlah. Tapi cuba untuk tidak crack under pressure sebab aku bukan kacang. Jadi aku perlulah membebel. Layankan saja aku, boleh?
But yeah, I know I am blessed. I have to admit that. Tapi kadang-kadang memang aku perlu ingatkan diri aku tentang itu. Yes, I am tired and I feel like throwing semua files ini ke bawah sana and just sleep, tapi aku perlu ingatkan diri to be thankful that I have a job to call my own and thus, some monies to spend on my baby. Sure, I am tired and sometimes I feel like nak mengamuk but I am thankful for the support and love of the people all around me; my darling husband, my beloved family and in-laws, and of course my best friends.
[Special shout out to Far and Ayin yang terlalu selalu terpaksa layan kerenah aku. Kah kah]
But above all, although I am tired and berat and tak selesa almost all the time, I am thankful that I am 38 weeks pregnant and masyaAllah, in just days or weeks, I’ll be holding my son in my very own arms insyaAllah and I know every single thing that I bitched about in this entry won’t matter anymore. I know it will be worth it. Without a doubt.