Blessed are the forgetful

"I could die right now. I'm just happy. I've never felt that way before. I'm just exactly where I wanna be."

I think I have a somewhat spotless mind. I have the ability to place selected unhappy memories or thoughts, or nasty ones, or depressing stuff, or, I mean.. you get it, right? Any memories that could make me unhappy.. I can place them on the farthest ruang of my mind. Those who know me really well, know that when somebody try to mention a person or apa2 keadaan or whatever relating to that unhappy memories, saya akan tutup telinga, not wanting to remember. I try to block them as best I could possibly do.

Like this someone from my past. I remember him. And all the nice things he did for me. Sure I still remember the unhappy bits too, but they are too far in my head to be found. Only if I try. Only if someone make me to. Jika tidak, saya beginilah. Not vindictive at all towards him. At all. Despite of what he did (now that I am writing about him, they are all coming back to me. And it is painful). I tried to forget long time ago, and I somehow did.

I can always do that. And I love that about my mind. It keeps me from being unhappy. It gives me eternal sunshine.

People like Clementine and Joel wanted to erase each other because they wanted to forget the nasty stuff. But it is not technologically possible to pick which memories they want to keep and which ones to thrash. So they have to erase it all. Lucky for me, I can make my pick. And I do not lost those memories forever. I can still find them somewhere in my mind and that will keep me grounded. To have them erased forever like what were done to Joel and Clementine is just very unnatural, and is simply wrong.

I have a somewhat spotless mind. Not exactly spotless. But the dirts are all di satu tempat yang terlalu belakang dalam kotak ingatan saya. Sangat jauh. And I like it. Aaah to have eternal sunshine.

And believe me, Eternal Sunshine of The Spotless Mind is one of the best and original romantic movie ever made. It's strange, yet clever. Funny yet sad, and imaginative, yet honest. You don't just get to watch a love story, you fall in love with what love really is.