These are the moments I thank God that I’m alive. These are the moments I’ll remember all my life.

Been spending the last few days with him and my girls. Apart from the usual dates and hanging-outs, I went cycling in Bukit Cerakah, first with him on 10/12/05 and later with my girls on 13/12/05. Cycling in Bukit Cerakah turned out to be a very very fun activity (and of course healthy and inexpensive as well).

My girls and I went for karaoke after the cycling (we actually spent 15 quality hours together on that day) and celebrated Elin’s birthday in advanced (she will be 23 on 28/12/05, our littlest sister). We karaoke-ed for almost 3 hours and it was so much fun. We had a speech session after the last song (which was the very saddening Goodbye by Spice Girls) during which we all cried and cried and cried. After the karaoke session, we went to the happening Kedai Kopi (where we used to celebrate most of the girls’ birthdays) for dinner, and later bid our goodbyes, had our pelukan berkumpulan, promising each other that we will always stay in touch, and of course, cried some more. Far, Dod, Naem, Anis, Ana, Mazia, Jaja, Elin: AM loves you girls so so so much!








The hardest bit was saying good bye to Far, the girl I spent most of my waking moment with. My kindred spirit. The irreplaceable. Yesterday whole morning was spent helping Far packing (and throwing away) her stuffs. I was hoping that I would not cry again and I warned her not to start crying, but that is not even slightly possible. We cried like mad girls while Daud, Mazia, Thariq, Jaja and Mia watched us, and Far’s Papa & Mama waited in the car. I was mandom the whole evening after Far went back to Terengganu, but thankfully Daud was so supportive and did everything he could to cheer me up. But everywhere I go reminded me of Far, and although he succeeded in cheering me up, I still cried now and then, sometimes sobbing. Sure, things will never be the same again, but time will never change how we feel about each other. She is more than a friend, and even more than a sister. She is a part of me. Bagai hilang separuh diriku.


With Daud it was different; it was very depressing to part with him as he was always there (to memanjakan me to the max, to offer his love, support, assistance, company, silly antics) and now we will be far apart, however, we both know that we will still see each other as often as we could, and undoubtedly will stay in touch with each other (maybe excessively) every day. I nevertheless wept like a baby. No thanks to my PMS. Today is such a rainy day.




I love the familiarity of my life. The same old same old good friends who have been functioning as my chill pills and my dearest support system. The happiness and ketenangan I get from our (his and mine I mean) dating routine. The comfort of my little bachelor pad. The simple satisfaction I gain from my law reading. The joy of coming home to Far and my other housemates. My simple, satisfying life. I love it. But Far and I believe that human are creature of adaptation. However, also being human, I definitely need some time to menangis, mengenang memori, merindui kehidupan lama, before I will be fully ready for the next chapter of my life. Wish me luck.