Al-Quran (57:6) “….and He has full knowledge of the secrets of (all) hearts.”

Betapa aku biru sehari sebelum semalam. Biru yang amat sangat sehinggakan rasa menyampah pada semua jisim, keadaan dan jiwa. Teman jiwa saya juga dimarahi tanpa sebab. Mujurlah punya teman jiwa yang memahami. Syukur kepada Tuhan kerana menemukan saya dengannya.

Saya pada mulanya tidak tahu apakah punca kebiruan saya. Kusut sungguh fikiran, sayu sungguh hati. Kemudiannya saya selesema dan kesakitan kepala pula, lantas terpaksa berbuka puasa untuk menelan panadol. Selepas lunch hour barulah saya mengerti. It is the time of the month. Hilang kekeliruan saya. Apatahlagi setelah mengetahui Taylor Hicks menjadi IDOL dan kemudiannya cuti 2 hari saya diluluskan oleh immediate boss saya itu, semakin pudarlah kebiruan saya. Semalam dan hari ini saya telah bersemangat semula dan hati telah hampir berwana reddish pink seperti selalu.

Walaupun saya yakin kebiruan setiap wanita pada certain time of the month berpunca dari hormonal imbalance kami, saya masih tertanya, mengapa perlu begitu? Kerana bukankah kita sentiasa ada Tuhan untuk mengadu? Saya selalu percaya bahawa mereka yang lebih depression nya adalah mereka yang kurang pengaduannya kepada Tuhannya. Bukankah? Hati ini, banyak yang tak betul sebenarnya. Tapi teman jiwa, yakinlah, saya tidak mencipta perasaan jahat ini, ia hadir dengan hormon dan akibat kurangnya kekebalan. Malu diri ini membaca blog Sis TiniDewi yang menemui hobi baru mencintai Al-Quran sedang diri ini cuma mengamalkannya kadangkala sahaja.

Tapi hati ini yakin, ia boleh berubah. Sementelah hati yang kelmarin itu biru boleh bertukar hampir ke reddish pink pada semalam dan hari ini, ia boleh juga menjadi hampir memutih suci suatu hari nanti. Hati ini sebenarnya kini telah berbunga-bunga daisies merah kuning orange pink kerana akan bertemu rakan-rakan untuk convocation Isnin ini dan akan ke PD minggu hadapan untuk wedding cum mini STF959 reunion itu. Alangkah bahagianya hati. There a lot of things to be happy for. Hidup ini, just like it could be better, kata Noah, it could be worse juga. Lantas apa lagi? Bersyukurlah.

Aku tidak pernah bermimpi untuk memilikimu
Tapi kita telah ditakdirkan berjumpa
Lalu aku jatuh cinta padamu

Meet our new babies: A Z U R A & Z A C K

Yes, they are named after the characters in one of my favourite old school movie (and song), AZURA. Notice an excerpt of the song as my topic? The part where Jamal recites dengan amat jiwang with his masculine voice. Classic. Anyways, my darling Mr. D bought me this phone and bought himself a super cool (and value for money) phone, both of which are Sony Ericsson's babies. I love my phone. It is basic (seperti yang kuidamkan) and it is adorable. I love it!


Saturday was my firm's Family Day. Those who know me well know that I love gathering and intimate parties and get-together; hence the reason I had a great time during the family day. It was a pleasure to see partners, lawyers and staffs (and their families) loosened up, put their hair down and just had fun. The small group of us the bachelors and bachelorettes had so much fun juga cheering loudly for people, admiring babies and beautiful families, enjoying amazingly good foods dan mengangkut pulang hadiah lucky draw! Well I guess I am lucky after all!

A good marriage would be between a blind wife and a deaf husband

Last week, there was so much ado about the issue of hubby playing the role of housewife, while the wife plays the breadwinner. Ngee pelik. Anyways, sebenarnya I just want to share a comment made by (one of) my favourite writer, Awang Selamat on this issue. But before that.

Secretary of Jawatankuasa Fatwa Kebangsaan voiced out that in Islam, there is absolutely nothing wrong with husband ‘menguruskan rumah tangga’, however the responsibility to earn income for the family remains on the hubby. We are still waiting for the decision from Majlis Fatwa regarding this.

I personally concur with Mr. Secretary. The idea of seorang suami menguruskan keluarga is absolutely beautiful, and plus there is nothing wrong about a wife who chooses to work. TO HELP. Kerana, itu bukan kewajipan seorang isteri. Sekiranya gaji itu mahu disimpan untuk diri sendiri sahaja, we are most welcome to that. I know someone who gets to keep her gaji for herself and get allowance from her hubby some more. Now that’s ideal! Not everyone is that lucky though. Anyways, bottom line: Man, BE A MAN. WORK. Earn and provide for your family.

And now, I shall leave you with the simple, yet effective comment of Saudara Awang Selamat:

“Betulkah terdapat fenomena lelaki meninggalkan kerjaya dan menjadi suri rumah manakala isteri keluar bekerja menyara keluarga?

Pada hemat Awang, kalaupun ada, ia kes-kes terpencil. Sebagai lelaki dan suami, Awang berani katakan orang lelaki tidak mampu menjadi suri rumah. Paling kuat, mereka tolong buat kerja rumah, sering tidak sepenuh hati. Ada yang pergi ke pasar, kemas bilik tidur dan bersih tandas. Tapi semua ini sekadar menolong, bukan mengambil alih apa yang dianggap tugas isteri.

Awang tidak dapat bayangkan seorang suri rumah lelaki memainkan peranan suri rumah wanita dari A sampai Z seperti mencuci baju, memasak, menyediakan sarapan dan minum petang serta mengasuh anak.

Mungkin apa yang berlaku ialah lelaki berduit yang sengaja memilih untuk tunggu rumah, bukan menjadi suri rumah. Menjadi penunggu rumah dan suri rumah tentulah berbeza sama sekali. Ada juga lelaki yang sengaja ‘duduk rumah’ dan ditanggung oleh isteri – menongkah hukum alam.

Harap-harap dunia ini tidak akan terbalik. Biarlah hujan terus turun dari langit.”

Self is the only prison that can ever bind the soul

Kelmarin I brought home the files for yesterday’s court appearance. Just when I finally got a seat in that crammed train, the Encik beside me, (I know I wrote PAKCIK before and may have made some people merasakan aku adalah heartless. It is not. It is an ENCIK in his 30s) noticing the file, said “HSK?” “Err yes”, I said, aiming to end the conversation. Apparently, he once engaged my firm, bla bla bla, bla bla bla. I just gave him some “Oh”, “Ok”, and some polite smile, which is my cue for him to stop babbling please. Any reasonable man would understand that. But no, he proceeded and told me that he wants to sell his house and hence, asking me for the procedures. I told him the basic thing, dan memejamkan mata sambil bersandar ke dinding. Tapi dia berterusan bertanya.

So I told him politely that I am just an intern there and I don’t know much about Conveyancing or Corporate, as I am attached to only Litigation dept. I know I have not made my firm, and worse, my alma mater proud with that stupid statement of mine. I could have at least tried kan? He finally stopped, but not because of me, but to give his seat to an older pakcik who just got into the train. But who can really blame me anyway? It was almost 8 pm in a crowded train, after a hard day at work; the last thing I need is a legal talk with a stranger. Plus, unless you deserve it, you have got to pay for a legal advise la, macha.


I have a (very, very painful) infected cyst. It feels like an anak kucing is coming out of it. The Bintat (as I called it) has lasts for consecutively 5 days, and as I have predicted, I got scolded by the doctor for letting them grew worse within these 5 days before seeking treatment. But as I also predicted, I got my closure by seeing the doctor. Anyways, now that I have come to my senses kerana kesakitan Bintat ini masih menular, I now realised that I have officially menjadi a very good worker because when the doctor asked me whether I wanted an MC or not, I answered, “I don’t think there is a need”. Stupido. I know. Sigh.


I watched The I Do Diaries yesterday, in which the theme was My Best Friend’s Wedding. Episod kali ini mengenai wedding yang dirancang sepenuhnya oleh seorang best friend untuk best friend nya, and likewise. Dan mereka adalah individual yang sangat berlainan. How can a cool fashionista plan a perfect wedding for her simple, elegant best friend? And vice versa? But they did it. The fashionista succeeded with a Cinderella wedding for her best friend, and her best friend managed to pull a beautiful garden wedding for her. Tetapi, aku takkan benarkan perkara itu berlaku pada diriku. I mean, it’s your wedding. Sure, Far might have an idea of what I like and how I would love my wedding to be, but it’s my wedding, I want to have the final say!!! Tidakkah begitu yang sepatutnya?

I am 64% wonderfully weird

Get it? Like Phoebe’s hubby’s wedding oath. Never mind. Anyways, here’s another meme from Miss Axuerra. I always have known that I am weird anyway. Ngee.


[x] You put mayonaise on hot dogs. (Adakah pelik?)
[x] You like bread and butter (Sangat suka, ok!?)
[x] You play with your food
[x] You talk to your food (I talk to everything. To have fun lah. Bukan cakap dengan gaya2 weirdo macam tu)
[ ] All you ever think about is food
[ ] You like eating ice cream on a daily basis
[ ] You can't live without candy/sweets
[ ] You hate vegetables

TO T A L: 4


[x] You play with dolls (When I was a little girl)
[ ] You talk to your dog/cat as if it were a baby
[ ] You are scared of spoons
[x] You have a fear of dying (Masih banyak dosa, masih kurang pahala)
[ ] You cut yourself
[ ] You wish you were a queen/king/prince/princess
[ ] You wish you were married to Orlando Bloom or Angelina Jolie (Jambunya mamat Bloom itu! Tak suka, ok!? Jolie, jika aku lelakipun, tidak mahulah, intimidated nanti)
[x] You love sleeping

T O T A L: 3


[ ] You are afraid of bugs
[x] You have a fear of germs and bacteria
[x] You are a neat freak (Sikit2 lah. Have been noted for being weird. Ngee. Tapi taklah tahap disorder macam Monica tu.)
[x] You eat bugs/bunnies/birds/frogs/snails/dogs/babies (I eat burung puyuh)
[x] You have a fear that the world will end soon (Who doesn’t? Banyaknya dosa, kurangnya pahala)
[ ] You hate sports because you're afraid of getting hurt
[x] You love doing safe things all the time and never take risks
[ ] You scrub everything you own daily

T O T A L: 5


[ ] You're afraid of driving
[ ] You have destructive relationships
[ ] You talk to yourself in front of other people
[x] You talk to yourself in your mind (Who doesn’t?)
[x] You believe in ghosts
[ ] You believe in zombies
[ ] You believe in the tooth fairy
[ ] You still believe in Santa Clause

T O T A L: 2


[ ] You wish you were dead
[ ] You are a vegetarian
[ ] You are a tree hugger
[ ] You believe in the easter bunny
[x] You have weird friends (Ramai okay!?)
[ ] You wish everyone else is dead
[x] You were totally 100% honest in this quiz

T O T A L: 2

Now count up the number and multiply by 4.
Then repost saying I'm (the number you got times 4) % weird.

IBU:

RATU

HATIKU

QUEEN


OF MY


HEART

According to this survey, my life is 88% perfect

[x] You know someone that cares about you.
[x] You have a boyfriend/girlfriend/fiance(e)/husband/wife.
[x] You have your own room.
[x] You own a cell phone. (Mine was stolen yesterday. Using my dad’s 2nd phone)
[x] You get good grades/work rating.
[x] You have an ipod/ mp3 player.
[x] Your parents are still married.
[x] You have more than 2 best friends.
[ ] There is a swimming pool in your backyard/apartment.
[x] You live in a house/apartment.

T O T A L: 9


[x] You dress how you want to.
[x] You hang out with friends more than once a week. (Lunch?)
[x] There is a computer/laptop in your room.
[x] You have never been beaten up.
[ ] You never cry more than twice a month
[x] You are allowed to listen to the music if you want to.
[x] Your room is big enough for you.
[x] People don’t use you for something you have.
[x] You have been to a concert.
[x] You laugh more than twice a day.

T O T A L: 9


[x] You have over 100 friends on friendster.
[x] You have pictures on friendster.
[x] You get allowance.
[x] You collect something normal. (Books?)
[x] People don’t make fun of you to be mean.
[x] You look forward to go to school/work. (Okay, sometimes I don’t)
[x] You don’t wish you were someone else.

[x] You play a sport. (Futsal?)
[x] You do something after school/work.
[x] You shower daily. (Duh!?)

T O T A L: 10


[x] You own a car. (My mom’s. I am using it)
[x] You usually don’t fight with your parents. (Teehee)
[x] You’re healthy. (Bolehlah)
[ ] You’ve never had a cavity. (But I have grade A teeth)
[x] You are happy with your appearance.
[ ] You aren’t self-conscious at all. (A little?)
[ ] You have never got a failing grade in your life.
[x] You have friends.
[x] You have so many inside jokes with friends.
[x] You know your parent care and love you.

T O T A L: 8


[x] You know what is going on in the world. (At least the obvious ones)
[x] You care about so many people. (Very)
[x] You are happy with your life. (Very)
[x] You usually aren’t sick. (But I have morning flu that lasts about 15 mins everyday)
[x] You know more than one language.
[ ] You have a screen name.
[ ] You own a pet.
[x] You know the words to more than 5 songs. (YES)
[x] You don’t have any enemies. (At least not that I know of)
[x] You are happy you’re living. (Very)

T O T A L: 9


To those who are continuing this meme:

- Count up the totals and multiply by 2.
- Then repost with this title: My life is % perfect.

- As this survey is so fun, I decide to tag some people: Ayunique, Yatt, Zaianne, Dina Honey, Zura (no pressure though) and anyone interested.

“Sham betide your ill-fared face, mortal maid, thus to steal unkindly from me the fairest knight in all my company! And you, Tam-lin, curse your beautiful sea-grey eyes that you should betray me so, who ever loved and cared for you!"


AWAS KECURIAN TELEFON BIMBIT

Kuala Lumpur: Sebuah telefon bimbit milik Marliza, 24 telah dicuri di dalam komuter laluan ________ pada 10.5.2006, jam lebih kurang 8 malam. Pemilik telefon bimbit ini percaya bahawa telefonnya telah dicuri tanpa disedarinya di dalam keadaan komuter yang penuh akibat penumpang yang bersesak-sesak berikutan kerosakan komuter laluan ke ________ semalam.

Pemilik telefon bimbit tersebut yang kepenatan baru pulang dari tempat kerjanya dipetik berkata, “Saya tidak menyedari bila telefon saya dicuri. Mungkin kerana penumpang terlalu ramai dan hampir tiada ruang langsung untuk bergerak. Saya cuma menyedari ketiadaan telefon tersebut di dalam beg galas saya apabila penumpang telah berkurangan dan saya dapat memeriksa beg saya. Saya sedih dan amat kesal dengan kejahatan hati pencuri tersebut. Apakah dia tidak dididik dengan betul oleh ibubapanya? Atau dia sendiri yang membuat kesilapan tersebut. Saya doakan agar dia dapat berubah. Perkataan yang paling sesuai untuk menterjemahkan perasaan saya ketika ini, maaf, kerana di dalam Bahasa Inggeris, ialah FURIOUS.”

Pemilik tersebut juga menyatakan bahawa sekiranya ada sesiapa yang bermurah hati ingin membelikannya telefon bimbit, “Kecil tapak tangan, nyiru saya tadahkan”. - MARLIZA. NEUROTICISM.

“Had I known but yesterday what I know today, I'd have taken out your two grey eyes and put in eyes of clay, and had I known but yesterday you'd be no more my own I'd have taken out your heart of flesh and put in one of stone.”
– The Dogs of Babel

From the chapter-ending reflections of The Dogs of Babel:

"Do you see, then, the way my Lexie liked to make a game of the things of this life? That she carried within her a fine sense of play that colored everything she did? Is it any wonder that I look around at everything she left behind and wonder if she may be playing with me still?"

A novel you can't put down. I SO LOVE IT.

Let your love be like the misty rains, coming softly, but flooding the river.

After episodes and episodes and seasons and seasons of kesengsaraan and hence milking viewers’ emotions, the tear jerking drama Dalam Hati Ada Cinta (“DHAC”) finally ended last night. (At least I think so lah. Who am I kidding? Entah2 ada sequel or episod baru lagi. Tidaaaak!) Although I do not follow DHAC fanatically, selalunya aku akan tertengok juga sebab Ibu is a huge fan and it helps that DHAC has good script and big names.

FYI, the main characters, Lia (Umie Aida) and Wan (Ako Mustafa) hanya bahagia dalam beberapa episod dalam Season 1. Dalam Season 2, 3, 4 dan 5, mereka amat sengsara. Terpisah, terhalang, self restraint, mengangis, frustration, gelisah, merajuk, ego, semuanya cukup. And they were not even too happy to begin with. That is why I don’t get it why they still want to be together, tak boleh nak cari kebahagiaan lain. Even when Lia met Aqasha’s character and later, Fahrin’s character, she ended mengecewakan kedua2 lelaki yang sangat baik ini. And for Wan, not even the beautiful Intan Azura nor Fazura could help him get Lia out of his mellow, unrealistic head.

The problem with this couple roots from Wan being a man with no integrity. Tiada pendirian. Orang tolak ke hulu, ke hululah dia kemudi. Orang tarik ke hilir, mendayunglah dia ke hilir. Daddy tersilap pinangkan kakak Lia, Tina, instead of Lia, on the nikah day itself baru nak say No. The same thing happened with Fazura, he couldn’t lafaz the akad as “Saya hanya cintakan Lia”. Stupido. Tetapi senang saja cerita ini berakhir: Wan kejar Lia (finally dapat buangkan ego dia after persuaded by Tina), got on his knees (with his hideous blue shirt) and proposed Lia (finally!) with an ugly looking ring, and Lia who was initially angry and pissed and crying tiba-tiba senyum girang and said Yes. Kan senang tu!? Tension betul dengan lelaki-lelaki macam ini. Get a grip of yourself lah, macha. Be decisive. Take control. In 3 words: BE A MAN.


Irrelevant Postscript: I cried in the commuter today. Lucky me, I was having my regular morning flu, maka camouflaged lah tangisanku. Oh, the reason? I was reading The Dogs of Babel (Carolyn Parkhurst); still haven’t finished, but it is really good; I’m sure I’ll write about it later.

I decided long ago, never to walk in anyone's shadows
If I fail, if I succeed, at least I live as I believe

I have a submission due tomorrow. And yet I am so bored I managed to find some spare time to answer some interesting questions. About me of course. This is actually an unreplied Tag from Zaianne and I finally felt like answering it. Anyways, I am tagging anyone interested. Here goes my precious time:


1. How old do you feel?
Right now I am feeling my age (or older). Legal stuffs make me feel old and somber.

2. Where were you on September 11th, 2001?
Bermalas-malasan at home. I remember watching the shocking news on Berita Terkini while surfing Friendster.

3. What do you believe is the meaning of life?
Everything you do, it must lead you to being happy, successful and blessed. Dunia akhirat.

4. What is your favorite thing to cook?
Pastries and cake.

5. You have only a dollar to your name. What do you buy?
Depends on what I need at that moment. Now, I’d buy Kosmo because I feel like I need a light reading.

6. What would your last meal be?
Something good I hope. My mom’s definitely.

7. What is the youngest age you have memories of?
Bicycle fight with Ruben, my Indian neighbour. I was 4. He was a brat. Ibu told me he grew up to be a handsome, chivalrous young man though.

8. What is your favorite thing in the world?
Too many to mention. LIFE itself, probably.

9. What is your most missed memory?
Memories with someone who used to be a very good friend of mine. I don’t think she missed me though.

10. Have you ever punched someone on purpose?
Yes. I was a Tae-Kwando kiddo and later a member of Silat Cekak Ustaz Hanafi. So yes, there were lots of intentional punchings involved.

11. Do you know what color chartreuse is close to?
No. If I look in the dictionary, I would be cheating kan?

12. Did you like garbage pail kids?
Apakah? Are they those musicians who make music using trash? Kalau tidak, maaf.

13. Why do we have daylight savings time?
We don’t have it here.

14. What living person would you want to meet?
My girls.

15. What dead person?
Allahyarham Tok Wan.

16. Where in the world would you live if you could?
In a beautiful, homey house with my hubby and kids, near to my parents.

17. Who is your favorite artist?
Currently, no one. I love their music, not them. Oh ak aa, Siti Nurhaliza. Bite me.

18. Who has had the most influence on you (good or bad)?
Ibu. Yes, good and bad.

19. What is your favorite dessert?
Cake and tart.

20. What age is your favorite so far in your life?
23

21. Can you make cookies from scratch?
Yes!

22. Was the chicken first or the egg?
“It was the chicken, solely on the grounds that it could announce its existence first. If it was the egg then it just sat there quietly that no one bloody knew.” --> Zaianne copied this answer from her friend and I’m going to copy it as well. So smart la this girl.

23. Hershey or nestle?
Nestle

24. Night out or night in?
I’m a night in sort of person. Night out, occasionally lah.

25. Single forever with a great family or no family and your soul mate?
Tough one. Can I not choose? Anyways, for me, family comes first.

26. What is your favorite scented candle?
Most of them make me dizzy. But vanilla is okay I guess. Or lavender. Safe choice.

27. Do you ever wear a wife beater?
Do I ever wear a what? Oh aku tau aku tau. Singlet tu kan? NO.

28. If you could live in a store which one would it be?
MPH Midvalley – books and foods, I’d be a happy camper.

29. Can you eat a dozen donuts in one sitting?
No. I am quite a sweet tooth person, but not that extreme.

30. What is your favorite curse word?
None. I don’t curse dengan dasyat, apatah lagi mempunyai favourite curse word. Tetapi saya seringkali mengatakan “BUDUH”.

31. Your favorite regular word?
”Comelnye”. Ngee.

32. Have you ever read/tried to read the bible?
No

33. Who do you dislike most in the world?
Semua manusia berhati jahat.

34. What is your ideal date?
Good foods, good ambiance, good conversation. Cliché I know, but that’s just it.

35. Would you rather marry a deaf or blind person?
Blind. Good conversation is essential.

36. What is your favorite shape?
Circle. Star. Heart.

37. Can you eat just one chip?
No. I’d always crave for more.

38. Where is the farthest you’ve ever been from home?
Makkatul Mukaramah.

40. What is your desktop background?
Office’s: Plain turquoise. Home’s: Pon&Zi character.

41. What song do you identify with most?
I don’t know. Jewel’s Hands? Oh I know! Whitney Houston’s Greatest Love of All!

42. Which movie do you wish was your life?
I don’t know. Mine is okay I guess.

43. Has someone ever intentionally put food on you?
My girls. Cake fight during Mazia’s birthday last year.

44. What color is your favorite?
I love all colours. I believe they really complement each other. But I am usually seen wearing black, brown, red or pink.

45. What color do you feel represents you?
Reddish pink?

46. Do you believe in God?
Most definitely.

47. Have you ever broken a bone?
Alhamdulillah no.

48. Have you ever shut someone’s fingers in a door?
Yes! Naem’s. Sorry, darling.

49. What is the weirdest thing you have ever eaten and hated?
Wasabi.

50. What is the weirdest thing you have ever eaten and liked?
Siput buluh. The exquisite food of Sarawak. I don’t know their real name.

51. What is your ideal ice cream creation?
Vanilla + Chocolate Chip Cookie.

52. If you could marry someone from a movie (the character not actor) then who?
Noah from The Notebook.

53. What is your favorite thing to do?
Watch a good tv show or read a good book.

54. What is your favorite junk food?
Twisties.

55. What is the longest you’ve gone without talking to anyone?
Few hours. At least masa exam, 3 jam dah tu.

56. What is your favorite board game?
Scrabble.

57. Your favorite book?
Man & Boy. The Wedding. The Time Traveller’s Wife. Memoirs of a Geisha. Daddy Long Legs. P/S I Love You. Chocolat. etc etc.

58. What movie could you watch over and over again?
Ali Setan. P. Ramlee’s comedies.

59. Do you know how to change a tire?
I think I do. I have learned, anyway.

60. Have you ever eaten paste?
Does prawn paste count? If yes, yes.

61. What is your ideal Halloween costume?
Drew Barrymore’s dress in Ever After. Adorable!

62. What toy have you always wanted and never gotten?
A complete set of Play Doh.

63. What item could you not go without during the day?
My handphone.

64. Do you consider yourself a smart person?
I am okay.

65. Do you close your eyes when you listen to music?
Sometimes.

66. Do you eat the burnt chips?
No. But what’s the problem if I do?

67. Is there anything you HAVE to do everyday?
Eat.

68. 3 wishes… go (no world peace. things that are possible):
1. To be happy.
2. To be successful.
3. To be blessed, dunia akhirat.

Dancing in the dark, middle of the night. Taking your heart and holding it tight. Emotional touch touching my skin. And asking you to do what you've been doing all over again. It's a beautiful thing, don't think I can keep it all in. I just gotta let you know what it is that won't let me go.

It's your love. It just does something to me. It sends a shock right through me. I can't get enough. And if you wonder about the spell I'm under. It's your love.

Better than I was, more than I am. And all of this happened by taking your hand. And who I am now is who I wanted to be. And now that we're together, I'm stronger than ever, I'm happy and free.

It's a beautiful thing. Don't think I can keep it all in. If you asked me why I've changed, All I gotta do is say your sweet name. It's your love. It just does something to me. It sends a shock right through me. I can't get enough. And if you wonder. About the spell I'm under. It's your love.

The patient does not care about your science;
what he wants to know is, can you cure him?

I have great respect for doctors. I mean, who doesn't? When they tell us "No, you are not sick", or "You have perfect eyesight", or "You have perfectly normal blood pressure", or even when they deliver bad news like "We'd have to do a minor operation on you", or "You have a malignant cyst", we believe them, we trust them, we find closure in their words and console in their advices. We even voted them as Malaysians' most trusted people (according to Mix FM).

I have great respect for what they have to go through to get into med school - they are the people who excelled Biology and Chemistry easily when I had to struggle to even get passing marks. I admire them for having sailed through med school dan menjadi doktor yang terpaksa bertarung dan berdepan dengan nyawa, jiwa, emosi. Memang bukan kerja mudah. Much respect. Much respect.

And that is why I am so proud of my darling cousin who had just passed her final exam last week, now eligible to practice medicine and after all her hard work and prayers, finally crowned with the much-admired designation, DR. Congratulations, Dr.Nurul Huda Ariza. I am sure Allah will guide you through everything just like He had been there for you before.