A Tribute To Our Sisterhood

Aniz&Dod were complaining about me not including our friends' stories or thoughts in my newly-published article. Darlings.. Am is not that good of a writer that anything I write shall be published. But here goes, a small tribute to our sisterhood.

Tracing back my friendship patterns from kindergarden till present, I have always been quite a private person. I am the kind who enjoys making friends [and lots of 'em] but always maintain in close-knitted friendship, i.e. I have always been in certain intimate crowd, and these ppl who have been real close to me are those whom I trust and love most.

I started my college years with only Ana as my close alliance. Dod n Mazia were real close back then. Naem,Jaja n Aniz, as far as I can recall, belong to other crowd with Kechique n Felder. Far n I became close in Sem 02, and Elin.. she was definitely out of picture in the beginning.

Semesters after semesters [our time calculation is very much connected to period of semester], the sisterhood was formed. And here we are now, the 9 of us, me, Far, Mazia, Ana, Jaja, Naem, Dod, Aniz, Elin. These are among the ppl that matters most in my world. These are the ppl who I believe will save me when I need saving, will cover my ass when it needs cover, will come to aid when I need someone to lean on, will support me of my dreams, and will love me for who I am [ok maybe not the whole me.. but I do come in a package. and they are not complaining :D] And me, vice verca.

I planned to write individual testimonials for them here, but my mind at the moment is experiencing technical malfunction that too much memory loading could cause brain damage. Sorry friends. Please refer to Friendster to recall on how much I adore you guys. Anyhow, these eight individuals have shaped, mould, and coloured my life in many ways even they themselves could not imagine of. Thank you, friends.

Everyday I thank Allah for all of you. My love is for you, my friends.

The Sign of Affection I Am


cuddle and a kiss on the forehead - you like to be
close to your special someone and feel warm,
comfortable, and needed


What's Yours?
What Sign of Affection Are You?
By Quizilla

Blurry blurry world *blink blink*

Am feeling the feeling that I think I should not be feeling. Have you ever felt this way? You know you shouldn't be torturing your heart nor should you be boggling your mind with shitty shitty thoughts because you know it will just be a temporary ecplise of your heart [yep my heart does that to me all the time] but you just couldn't help yourself and suddenly the world around you becomes so blurry and everything ppl do and everything they say could be translated into some stupid things that could damage you. Mere conducts.. mere words.. can simply touch your heart in the wrong way. Have you? Or am I the bizarre one here?

Just rambling. Blink blink.

Good Old Friends

Went out on a date with my dear Ayin today. Had fun!! Lamenye tak jumpe. Last skali mase my boifren ade kat Mesia and that was like what? 3/4 months yg lalu? Haha. Altho she made me wait for one hour haha but it was worth it. Nasib baik beli buku cite.. i.e John Grisham's Runaway Jury [besnye ade movie die] and The Partner- 2 vol in one book dgn RM19.90. Is that a good bargain or what? Haha. Sempatla baca few pages before Ayin sampai :P We watched Cheaper by The Dozen which btw is a perfect movie for family. Comel! Tgk sebenanye sbb Ayin nak tgk Tom Welling heheh. Byk gile so-called hotties blakon i.e. our Superman yang machur [as Atok spells it], Ashton Kutcher [he is so hot but seems so dungu as well hehe], and Dean from Gilmore Girls [yg sgt comel blakon jadi bad boy]. Bes bes.

And then Sharul came. Amat lama tak jumpe pakcik tu.. last skali mase anta die kat airport gi Australia. 3 tahun lalu. Now he's on 3 months holiday. Real fun jumpe balik kwn lama. He is still the same old sweet Sharul. Chatted for a while, told me about his girl [Shaz is lucky :)] etc etc, kejap je sbb nak balik, then kene marah sbb kejap sgt jumpe. I'll make it up to you eh Pakcik?!

Sgt sonok jumpe kawan2 lama. And what they commented pasal saye? Yep the same thing sume org yg lama tak jumpe komen i.e. makin kecik. Helo ppl, por favor! I am NOT an aneroxic! Saye mkn.. byk lagi tau. But Sharul made my day by telling me yg saye makin tinggi [yea rite, dream on, Am haha]. Ok then, Ayin, I love u [dan sgt cherish the frenship that we have :)]. Good old friends.. those who know the song of your heart and can sing it back to you when you have forgotten the words.

postsript 1: Lama tak denga lagu We Could Be In Love- my childhood feveret. then Mix FM made my day [lagi]. Here goes:

WE COULD BE IN LOVE [Lea Salonga & Brad Kane]

Be still my heart. Lately it's mind is on it's own. It would go far and wide. Just to be near you. Even the stars. Shine a bit bright I've noticed. When you're close to me. Still it remains a mystery. Anyone who seen us. Knows what's going on between us. It doesn't take a genius. To read between the lines. And it's not just wishful thinking. Or only me who's dreaming. I know what these are symptoms of. We could be in love. I ask myself why. I sleep like a baby through the night. Maybe it helps to know. You'll be there tomorrow. Don't open my eyes. I'll wake from the spell I'm under. Makes me wonder how. Tell me how I could live without you now? And what about the laughter. The happy ever after. Like voices of sweet angels. Calling out our names. And it's not just wishful thinking. Or only me who's dreaming. I know what these are symptoms of. We could be in love. All my life. I have dreamed of this. But I could not see your face. Don't ask why to such distant stars. Can fall right into place.

postscript 2: Me and my boifren ade joint blog! Come and visit our Of Hearts and Minds kat www.am-and-king.blogdrive.com. Enjoy yourself peeps!

Claimed my wings from angels above


You are one of the few out there whose wings are
truly ANGELIC. Selfless, powerful, and
divine, you are one blessed with a certain
cosmic grace. You are unequalled in
peacefulness, love, and beauty. As a Being of
Light your wings are massive and a soft white
or silver. Countless feathers grace them and
radiate the light within you for all the world
to see. You are a defender, protector, and
caretaker. Comforter of the weak and forgiver
of the wrong, chances are you are taken
advantage of once in awhile, maybe quite often.
But your innocence and wisdom sees the good in
everyone and so this mistreatment does not make
you colder. Merciful to the extreme, you will
try to help misguided souls find themselves and
peace. However not all Angelics allow
themselves to be gotten the better of - the
Seraphim for example will be driven to fighting
for the sake of Justice and protection of those
less powerful. Congratulations - and don't ever
change - the world needs more people like you.


*~*~*Claim Your Wings - Pics and Long Answers*~*~*
By Quizilla

And I Love You So..

The Butterfly Effect
A young man (Ashton Kutcher) struggling with the psychological effects of sublimated childhood memories devises a technique of traveling back in time to inhabit his childhood body, but he finds that every trip back has unintended results on his present self, leading him to travel back again and again, trying to repair the damage that he's only making worse and worse.

::: My boyfriend told me the sweetest thing. He said that if he would ever get the chance to travel back in time, mesti sonok, he'd improve his childhood, he'd get 4.0 for every sem.. tapi he will not take the chance, sbb takot-takot, kalo turn back time, our path tak cross. Here, our 1st encounter mase my bf just got back from Chicago, and tetibe saye rase nak online mase tu. Camne kalo pusing balik mase bf saye tak gi Chicago? Balik lambat ke? Or saye tak online? Etc Etc. Thus, die tamau travel back kepada mase silam die like Kutcher did in that movie [which resulted in things getting worse and worse btw] sbb dgn bermulenye perjalanan takdir baru, bimbang takdir kami tak bertemu. Huwaaa! Ain't my bf the sweetest? Hehehe.

And here is my boyfriend's favourite Malay song [at the moment]: Izinkan by VE. And btw Sayang, die nyanyi lagi bes dari VE [haha no offence VE]

Izinkan

Izinkan aku melafazkan isi hatiku
Kau yang satu, bagiku tiada lain darimu
Pasti ku kan ubati lukamu
Segala kemahuanmu kuberi
Janjiku padamu hatiku hanya untukmu
Tiada yang lain darimu
Hasratku hanyalah untuk mu
Izinkan aku lafazkan isi hatiku
Masihkah aku bertakhta di hatimu
Janjiku padamu
Hatiku kau perlu tahu...
Mainanku igauanku hanya perasaan yang menular
Haruskah dirimu, membenci diriku
Kupohon maaf darimu
Tiada yang lain darimu
Hasratku hanyalah untukmu
Berikan diriku
Secebis senyum tawamu
Bagaikan mentari di hati
Bila kau kembali di sisi
Kau membawa erti hidupku ini
Kembali berseri..

At The Moment;

I Miss:
1. My parents
2. My Ibu's yummy dishes
3. My boifren [Je vous manque!!]

I Love:
1. My parents and my bro
2. My wonderful boifren
3. My kindred spirit and my friends
4. Kelly Clarkson's album
5. Pizza Hut's beef lasagna [yum!]
6. Chocolate! [esp those with almond nuts]
7. The Star
8. Singing along to Misha's songs [with my Kin]
9. My new ZA sunblock with SPF 35 and Vita E

I Loathe:
1. Having to study for 3 tests
2. Having to pay for the car I crashed
3. Being soooooo far apart from my man
4. Those ulat sampahs I had to get rid of this morning
5. Having to prepare for 2 assignments [Juris and Asso] and 1 speech due in 2 weeks time

J'aime:
My life!!

How about this:

1. A, in the beginning liked B. Upon meeting A, B became fond of A too. One sunny day, B brought her good friend, C, on her date with A. A then fell for C, who suprisingly likes A too.

2. O likes P and vice versa. O then tell P that he used to date Q, P's old friend.

3. R and S are so-called-best friends, but little that R knew that S likes him. R then pursued his dream girl, T, who is a friend of S.

4. W dated X when her boyfriend, Y left her. One sweet day, Y came back into the picture and W left X. Z, W's best friend likes X. They became close and when they started dating, Y left W again, and then came the problem when Z is faced with her loyalty to her best friend and her passion for X.

Now, who dare say relationship is not complicated?

*Based on true story. Partly changed to protect the protagonists.

My Baby You

As I look into your eyes
I see all the reasons why
My life's worth a thousand skies

You're the simplest love I've known
And the purest one I'll own
No, you'll never be alone

My baby you are the reasons I could fly
And cuz of you I don't have to wonder why
Baby you - there's no more just getting by
You're the reason I feel so alive

Though these words I sing are true
They still fail to capture you
As we words can only do

How will I explain that smile
And how it turns my world around
Keeping my feet on the ground

My baby you are the reason I could fly
And cuz of you I don't have to wonder why
Baby you - there's no more just getting by
You're the reason I feel so alive

I will sooth you if you fall
I'll be right there if you call
You're my greatest love of all

postscript 1: My Baby You is on air skrg kat cc ni. Sweet.

postscript 2: If you are concern with apa yg berlaku dgn kejadian kerete, seriously, takde progress haha. Bad bad me. Suke tangguh keje. Altho mcm nak mati, tapi masih idup dgn senang-lenang. Uisyhh!!!

postscript 3: My article 'Love v Passion: Apa Pilihan Anda?' kuar magazine Eh! Januari [for the 3rd time hehe alhamdulillah] Hepi hepi hepi!

postscript 4: Boifren dear, owang so sowey. Je t'aime!!!!!

My new year

I am so lazy, a bit retarded, dan agak mandom. I'm going to do this in point form.

1. My Bapak's car Sephia buat hal. Bateri kong. Bape kali kene jump start, then gi tuka new bat, melayang 200. Moral: I am so blessed with so many great friends (bygkanla, berlaku 1st time dpn kolej, 3/4 kawan2 law turun memberi bantuan.. the least pon moral support.. terharu!!) Sumeorg amat helpful. Tq tq. Mwahs.

2. My Bapak's car Sephia (again) berlanggar dgn Wira Encik Jamal. Huwaa! Knapela ko langgar org Am ooi?! Basically it was my fault sbb saye langgar die, tapi the alley was sgt2 gelap (I cannot recall whether die bukak bright light ke tak.. if he did, nape tade sape dlm kete Am prasan?), Encik tu di wrong lane (sbb one way je), kami sama2 cari parking, then suddenly woohoo I hit his car. Shockednye mase tu Allah sajelah yg tahu. Nasib baikla kete famili, the hubby was sgt baik. Wira trok gak aa, the Sephia bole thn aa troknye. Was sgt2 mandom smlm. Then call Far, ngadu2, she always got a way with me.. (I luv u Kin! Tq for lifting up my spirit!) Am sgt risau, duit lagi.. camne nak setel lagi.. dahla my parents tade sini. Huwaa!!! Lek lek, show some independent spirit, Am! Ok takpe.. arini Am dah positif.. will handle it dgn kemampuanku.. "Fainnamaail usriyusra, innamaal usriyusra."

3. My start to 2004 was not all bad. I moved to my new home (which is lovely bes bes), and my boifren is the nicest (u always are, my dear, tapi sempena new year ni extra baik lak hehe), I love you!! Haha. And I have great friends! With all these good things in my life, takpela Allah nak kasi sket ujian n dugaan.

Anyway, happy new year 2004 to all! Hope your start was an 'eventful' one hehe and have a great year ahead!