i've been searching my soul oo yea..

haha i lurve ally mcbeal. simply because she's so comel petite comel, a bumbling character yang suke sangat berangan mengarut-ngarut, a klutz at best oo yea, dan sgt sgt neurotic. somehow i find pompuan yg neurotic macam ally, lorelai, dan sandra bullock (dlm most of her movies) sgt fun dan bes. ally tuh.. haha plizla.. she's got almost everything yg org nak. comel lote, bijak bistari, independent, duit duit duit, network persahabatan yg sungguh bes, tempat hangout yg sgt bes selepas sehari keje, sumela.. except for 1 mende yg die paling nak tapi tak penahnye jumpe i.e. the right man. sian die. sob. larry paul.. previous bf die.. is like a dream guy (suke!) bes aa encik tuh.. just because he's so cute, witty, bijak, baik, caring, romantic, klaka.. bes bes. tapi tuh pon ally tak puas ati. nih skang tgh dgn victor pon tak puas ati. gaduh sbb victor suke selulit tapi ally takde?! haha. rewind balik.. suke selulit? woohoo bes bes takyah exercise. haha. read somewhere yg ally punye prob ni sebenanye berpunce sbb die ade sindrom2 tertentu seperti 1)masih attached dan obsessed dgn kngn cinte lama, 2)die ade her own romantic myth yg nak kene penuhi dan 3)she is too jaded utk percaya yg die akan jumpe true love.. i.e. she is too afraid to love. sindrom nombo 3.. am bole relate sket (cite before jumpe die ye.. hehe) emode kata am ade masalah too afraid to get hurt again. heheh. the right one? meant to be? camne nak tahu for sure? dlm cite it had to be you kata, "there's no such thing as 'meant to be'. you've got to make it meant to be. if she's worth spending your life with, then she's worth fighting for." far my kindy kata, the right one.. bukanla someone yg perfect.. tapi someone yg perfect utk diri kite.. macam puzzle kan.. fit together dgn mudah dan cantek jek. tak semestinye die kene jadik puzzle yg sempurna.. asalkan die fit sempurna dgn puzzle kite.. oklah. idup musti hepi. hehe. ooh.. berbalik kpd ally. some ppl kata die susah nak dpt steady bf sbb she is sooooo successful.. biasela tuh.. successful woman, angry men. haha frankly, lelaki2 sebegitu sgt selfish dan pengecut sbb die tanak rase 2nd best selepas his girl. huh?! btw being successful tuh camne ek? apa sebenanye kejayaan? lain org lainla deskripsi kejayaan. org yg ambitious, org yg undemanding, menteri pendidikan 2020, makcik jual nasik lemak kat koop, ct nurhaliza, malah marliza yanti, sume ade definition masing2 tentang kejayaan. tapi am sgt2 bersetuju dg definisi success yg diberikan oleh chicken soup ni: "what is success? to laugh often and much. to win the appreciation of intelligent ppl and the affection of children. kan? to earn the appreciation of honest critics and endure the betrayal of false friends. to appreciate beauty and to find beauty in others. sukung! haha. to leave the world a bit better whether by a healthy child, or a garden patch, or a redeemed social condition. to know even one life has breathed easier because you have lived. this is to have succeeded." bes tak? bes kan. insightful. heheh. kekdg bile kite dizapped oleh kejadian2 tertentu buat kite berpikir sket. cthnye kelmarin.. result.. pointer saye sgt ok, but then as expected, bel melukekan jiwe. tade idea nak write maka tampal poem Allah knows best tuh. tapi mama far slalu kata, dlm idup ni, tak bolela sume nak rose coloured glass, kekdg ada peristiwa2 yg kasik bengkak sket hati supaya kite bole stop, dan berfikir. kalo tak penah kene uji dgn Allah, mksdnye Allah tak pandang kite.. org yg diuji Allah tu.. sbb Allah tahu org2 tuh boleh endure cobaan2 Dia. kan kan? syukurla. izyan iryani penah tulis kat am yang sometimes mmgla kite wish yg kite ade someone else's life, her pretty face, her plenty riches, sume tuh.. tapi kite kene ingat yang behind every ray of sunshine there is always a drop of rain. tade org perfect. sume org ade prob sendiri. makanye hakunamatata! haha. problem-free phylosophy. alangkah bahagianye. hahaha. ally pon dah abis kat astro. banyaknye bebel mengarut2. pesal tak fokus nih? byk gile topic. naseb aah. haha. stop am stop.. erk.. lapar nak lunch.. arini kene masak sendiri *sigh hahaha