"tobe tumhare mere ishare"
subtitle: "kau adalah isyarat hatiku" ahaks toot am dah tgk chalte chalte! sgt kagum, tgk industan kat wayang. haha demimu mazia. okla cite ni. srk ngan rani. busan aa gak, kekdg mcm nak tido jek, kekdg tuh swit noo la plak. haha. pengajaran dr cite ni kata far: kalo baru knal org tu tige hari, no matterla kite rase cam dah jumpe lifeline, soulmate, buat ati pengarang jantung bla3, tp jgnla tros rushing nak kawen. bawak bertenang. nanti bile dah stuck dlm ikatan yg sgt sacred tu baru nampak sume true colours die (yg dlm cite ni ialah baran + messy), tak ke naya tuh? haha. tahpepe. tade pe nak write sebenanye, tade idea. last week minggu yg hectic sbb sebok bejalan. next week barula nak setat blaja dgn bersungguh2. haha yela tuh. smlm n today buat love generation cd marathon dgn far. 8 cd tuh. leteh. naseb baikla cite tuh comel gile kan yong kan? typical aa, tp sgt shweet: katagi tetpei jumpe uesugi riko yg baru putus tunang. intention: one night stand. riko bijak. tetpei bengang sbb tak berjaya. esoknye tetpei kene tuka jabatan, masuk bhgn marketing sama riko. jumpe2 tros begadoh. haha bes bes r'ship berasaskan gaduh. riko suke tetpei. tetpei still in luv dgn ex die who happens to be his future sis in law, mizuhara. bile tetpei dah setat suke riko, mizuhara mule sebok balik. tetpei cam komfius. uisyh complex btol. riko pun leteh tunggu n try. lari. tetpei pon insaf. biasela, bile dah tade barula rase betapa berhargenye die. isyh isyh kesilapan paling common. tp hepi endingla. mana bole sedey, bakar cd tu kang. haha hostile tuh. bes aa cite tuh. takuya kimura sgt comey! sape bole deny tuh? haha. smlm akademi fantasia (alaa yg ala-ala american idol tuh) adie got voted out. sian die. rupe ade. suare pon ok. tapi tula.. senario tu menunjukkan msyrkt mmgla tak pandang mende2 tuh saje. sume mende org tgk, cara kite bersosial, care layan org lain, bla bla sume tuh essential (adie cam sumbung sket). atie nyanyi trok gile smlm lagu save the best for last. tapi sbb die baik, outgoing, dan sgt cantek gak, so masihla stay. tapi my vote is still for vincent. waa pakej gile. mmgla jadik artis nanti mamat tuh. okla malas dahla nak menaip. nak gi denga die cite mimpi die. hahaha. lalalalala.
Monday, June 30, 2003
Sunday, June 22, 2003
NO MATTER WHAT
"I don't want to mind my own business, yours is much more interesting" ---> maka itulah perbincangan kita hari ini. kenapalah manusia suke sgt amek tahu hal org lain? maybe itula human nature. tapinye ade masyarakat yg terlebeh 'caring' nye. terlebeh mengambil tahu. itu yg tak tahan. kalo sekadar nak amek tahu dan keep to diri sendiri tape gak, yang cukup busan kalo suke sebar2kan mende yg die sendiri tak tahu kesahihannye. alaaahaaai. tapi the key utk mengatasi prasaan bengang terhadap mereka2 yg TERLALU suke amek tahu hal org lain ni ialah dengan leaving them to their own thoughts. what other people think of me is none of my business kan? saye takleh kontrol camne org pikir, rase, gossip tentang saye. kenapa kite resah sgt apa org pikir pasal kite ek? am penah baca ia adalah sebenanye the need for approval. sbbnye kite idup dlm society. kita nak sumeorg approve kite, apa kite buat, kite resah apa org pikir kalo kite buat camtu, cakap macam ni. mmg mcm tu. maka inila major problem/halangan utk rase sonok: others skang ni have control of our happiness. kite actually ade 2 pilihan saje: 1)to have peace of mind, atau 2)to worry pasal apa others would think. we cannot do both. tapi more often than not, slalu nak pilih nombo 2. kenapalah haai. kite tak bole please sumeorg setiap masa. kite kene ingat kalo org tak setuju dgn pilihan/lifestyle kite, itu their business. kite tak semestinye sukung cara die gak. tapi susah betolla nak wat camtu. even worse kekdg kite nak explain apa yg kite wat kat sumeorg, kenapa saye buat tu, buat ni. kenapa kite explain diri kite? again, the need for approval. susahla kalo sume mende buat pon nak explain. tapi kite tamau dimisunderstood. itula pasal. bile amek jalan mendiam diri jek, mulela keluar crite2 rekaan, sbbnye, sbb kite tak crite sendiri. sure, kite bole wat tak tau je, tapi makin buat tak tau, makin bykla dongeng yang tercipta. itu la yg susah tu. cara utk mengatasi ni ialah dgn to be true to yourself, jgn offend org lain, tapi be true to yourself. kalo kite choose to explain, do it sbb kite nak share thoughts/opinion/keadaan kite ngan org lain, bukan sbb kite nak approval. sbbnye, permission yang diri sendiri bagi dah cukup sufficient, org lain takyah nyebok. haha harshnye pekataan nyebok. tapela. haha. kalo boleh gune cara2 tuh mesti bole hepi hepi dan hepi. eheh tampal lagu tema baru kami ; ) bes bes.
No Matter What: No matter what they tell us. No matter what they do. No matter what they teach us. What we believe is true. No matter what they call us. However they attack. No matter where they take us. We'll find our own way back. I can't deny what I believe. I can't be what I'm not. I know I'll love forever. I know, no matter what. If only tears were laughter. If only night was day. If only prayers were answered. Then we would hear God say. No matter what they tell you. No matter what they do. No matter what they teach you. What you believe is true. And I will keep you safe and strong. And sheltered from the storm. No matter where it's barren. A dream is being born. No matter who they follow. No matter where they lead. No matter how they judge us. I'll be everyone you need. No matter if the sun don't shine or if the skies are blue. No matter what the end is. My life began with you. I can't deny what I believe. I can't be what I'm not. I know, I know. I know this love's forever. That's all that matters now no matter what.
"I don't want to mind my own business, yours is much more interesting" ---> maka itulah perbincangan kita hari ini. kenapalah manusia suke sgt amek tahu hal org lain? maybe itula human nature. tapinye ade masyarakat yg terlebeh 'caring' nye. terlebeh mengambil tahu. itu yg tak tahan. kalo sekadar nak amek tahu dan keep to diri sendiri tape gak, yang cukup busan kalo suke sebar2kan mende yg die sendiri tak tahu kesahihannye. alaaahaaai. tapi the key utk mengatasi prasaan bengang terhadap mereka2 yg TERLALU suke amek tahu hal org lain ni ialah dengan leaving them to their own thoughts. what other people think of me is none of my business kan? saye takleh kontrol camne org pikir, rase, gossip tentang saye. kenapa kite resah sgt apa org pikir pasal kite ek? am penah baca ia adalah sebenanye the need for approval. sbbnye kite idup dlm society. kita nak sumeorg approve kite, apa kite buat, kite resah apa org pikir kalo kite buat camtu, cakap macam ni. mmg mcm tu. maka inila major problem/halangan utk rase sonok: others skang ni have control of our happiness. kite actually ade 2 pilihan saje: 1)to have peace of mind, atau 2)to worry pasal apa others would think. we cannot do both. tapi more often than not, slalu nak pilih nombo 2. kenapalah haai. kite tak bole please sumeorg setiap masa. kite kene ingat kalo org tak setuju dgn pilihan/lifestyle kite, itu their business. kite tak semestinye sukung cara die gak. tapi susah betolla nak wat camtu. even worse kekdg kite nak explain apa yg kite wat kat sumeorg, kenapa saye buat tu, buat ni. kenapa kite explain diri kite? again, the need for approval. susahla kalo sume mende buat pon nak explain. tapi kite tamau dimisunderstood. itula pasal. bile amek jalan mendiam diri jek, mulela keluar crite2 rekaan, sbbnye, sbb kite tak crite sendiri. sure, kite bole wat tak tau je, tapi makin buat tak tau, makin bykla dongeng yang tercipta. itu la yg susah tu. cara utk mengatasi ni ialah dgn to be true to yourself, jgn offend org lain, tapi be true to yourself. kalo kite choose to explain, do it sbb kite nak share thoughts/opinion/keadaan kite ngan org lain, bukan sbb kite nak approval. sbbnye, permission yang diri sendiri bagi dah cukup sufficient, org lain takyah nyebok. haha harshnye pekataan nyebok. tapela. haha. kalo boleh gune cara2 tuh mesti bole hepi hepi dan hepi. eheh tampal lagu tema baru kami ; ) bes bes.
No Matter What: No matter what they tell us. No matter what they do. No matter what they teach us. What we believe is true. No matter what they call us. However they attack. No matter where they take us. We'll find our own way back. I can't deny what I believe. I can't be what I'm not. I know I'll love forever. I know, no matter what. If only tears were laughter. If only night was day. If only prayers were answered. Then we would hear God say. No matter what they tell you. No matter what they do. No matter what they teach you. What you believe is true. And I will keep you safe and strong. And sheltered from the storm. No matter where it's barren. A dream is being born. No matter who they follow. No matter where they lead. No matter how they judge us. I'll be everyone you need. No matter if the sun don't shine or if the skies are blue. No matter what the end is. My life began with you. I can't deny what I believe. I can't be what I'm not. I know, I know. I know this love's forever. That's all that matters now no matter what.
Saturday, June 21, 2003
remember me this way pliz...
kenapalah haai?! i'm the worst fren in the whole wide world. altho am slalu ingat yg am sgt cube cherish, appreciate, dan tunjukkan kat all my frens yg am sayang diorg, am telah abaikan seseorg yg sebenanye paling am care, sgt sayang, someone yg ade role yg sgt besar dlm idup am dr 2nd day kat estief sampai skang ni. sume tu berlaku di luar sedar hasil dari satu prasaan yg tak disuarekan tapi diterjemahkan melalui perbuatan ignorance dan menjauhkan diri. saye ignore prasaan die.. lalui idup mcm tade buat salah ngan sesape.. buat die tamau trust saya dah. id dear, kat blog ni am nak mintak ampun sangat sangat for sume mende. sume skali. ampun. kan kite penah ade theme quotation: "never let a dispute injures a great friendship". mmg takkan cukup ampun yg am mintak. tapi give me a chance ok. aku bukan nak prove kat ko yg aku sebenanye kawan yg baik, tapi aku nak baiki kesalahan aku, dan janji akan jadi kawan yang lebih baik. boifren saye kata yang saye adelah the most wonderful besfren, tapi then again, die boifren saye, tapi, makanye saye nak memenuhi expectation tuh, sbbnye, saye sgt sgt sayang sume kwn2 saye. sesape yg am dah hurt tanpa disedari, i'm so so so so so so sowey. saye manusia biase.. sgt sgt biase.. sgt sgt byk flaws.. sgt sgt slalu buat silap. kasikla am chance, id. waaa am sowey ok. sori gak kat sesape yg terase hati sbb am ni kekdg bole jadik secretive sgt.. bukan tamau share, tamau cite, tapi maybela kot.. ade masalah trust dlm diri ni. bukan salah org lain. mmg masalah kendiri. my bad. am sayang dan hargai sgt sume kekwn dr kecik sampaila besa, takle nak list sume tapinye u knowla who u r, thank u sgt, am sowey kalo tak tunjuk camne am sayang korang, dan appreciation thdp korang. maybe psl tula skang ni over appreciative kat my crowd yg skang ni.. utk tebus kesalahan2 kurang menghargai di masa silam, tapi nak korang yg am buat salah tuh tahu, am sowey sgt, am akan lebeh peka lepas ni. saye percaya, definisi kawan yg terbaik adalah bile die hepi utk kwn die, sukung kwn die, stand up for kwn die, dan kalo utk apa yg kwn die wat silap tuh, die takkan ckp "there.. i told u so" tapi akan tulung kesat air mata, pinjamkan peha tempat tido, bahu tempat nangis. saye sangke saya dah cube buat camtu, tapi tanpa kepekaan saye, saye rupenye tak buat camtu kat sume. hence, saye mintak ampon to all. sesape saje. remember me this way.. every now and then we find a special friend who never lets us down... who understands it all, reaches out each time we fall
you're the best friend i have found... I know you can't stay, a part of you will never ever go away, your heart will stay.....
I'll make a wish for you, and hope it will come true, if life will just be kind, to such a gentle mind, if you lose your way,
think back on yesterday, remember me this way, remember me this way. I don't need eyes to see the love you bring to me, no matter where I go and I know that you'll be there forever-more a part of me and everywhere I'll always care..... and I'll be right behind your shoulder,watching you, I'll be standing by your side, all you do and I won't ever leave as long as you believe, you just believe.... I'll make a wish for you and hope it will come true, if life will just be kind to such a gentle mind, and if you lose your way think back on yesterday, remember me this way, remember me this way.
kenapalah haai?! i'm the worst fren in the whole wide world. altho am slalu ingat yg am sgt cube cherish, appreciate, dan tunjukkan kat all my frens yg am sayang diorg, am telah abaikan seseorg yg sebenanye paling am care, sgt sayang, someone yg ade role yg sgt besar dlm idup am dr 2nd day kat estief sampai skang ni. sume tu berlaku di luar sedar hasil dari satu prasaan yg tak disuarekan tapi diterjemahkan melalui perbuatan ignorance dan menjauhkan diri. saye ignore prasaan die.. lalui idup mcm tade buat salah ngan sesape.. buat die tamau trust saya dah. id dear, kat blog ni am nak mintak ampun sangat sangat for sume mende. sume skali. ampun. kan kite penah ade theme quotation: "never let a dispute injures a great friendship". mmg takkan cukup ampun yg am mintak. tapi give me a chance ok. aku bukan nak prove kat ko yg aku sebenanye kawan yg baik, tapi aku nak baiki kesalahan aku, dan janji akan jadi kawan yang lebih baik. boifren saye kata yang saye adelah the most wonderful besfren, tapi then again, die boifren saye, tapi, makanye saye nak memenuhi expectation tuh, sbbnye, saye sgt sgt sayang sume kwn2 saye. sesape yg am dah hurt tanpa disedari, i'm so so so so so so sowey. saye manusia biase.. sgt sgt biase.. sgt sgt byk flaws.. sgt sgt slalu buat silap. kasikla am chance, id. waaa am sowey ok. sori gak kat sesape yg terase hati sbb am ni kekdg bole jadik secretive sgt.. bukan tamau share, tamau cite, tapi maybela kot.. ade masalah trust dlm diri ni. bukan salah org lain. mmg masalah kendiri. my bad. am sayang dan hargai sgt sume kekwn dr kecik sampaila besa, takle nak list sume tapinye u knowla who u r, thank u sgt, am sowey kalo tak tunjuk camne am sayang korang, dan appreciation thdp korang. maybe psl tula skang ni over appreciative kat my crowd yg skang ni.. utk tebus kesalahan2 kurang menghargai di masa silam, tapi nak korang yg am buat salah tuh tahu, am sowey sgt, am akan lebeh peka lepas ni. saye percaya, definisi kawan yg terbaik adalah bile die hepi utk kwn die, sukung kwn die, stand up for kwn die, dan kalo utk apa yg kwn die wat silap tuh, die takkan ckp "there.. i told u so" tapi akan tulung kesat air mata, pinjamkan peha tempat tido, bahu tempat nangis. saye sangke saya dah cube buat camtu, tapi tanpa kepekaan saye, saye rupenye tak buat camtu kat sume. hence, saye mintak ampon to all. sesape saje. remember me this way.. every now and then we find a special friend who never lets us down... who understands it all, reaches out each time we fall
you're the best friend i have found... I know you can't stay, a part of you will never ever go away, your heart will stay.....
I'll make a wish for you, and hope it will come true, if life will just be kind, to such a gentle mind, if you lose your way,
think back on yesterday, remember me this way, remember me this way. I don't need eyes to see the love you bring to me, no matter where I go and I know that you'll be there forever-more a part of me and everywhere I'll always care..... and I'll be right behind your shoulder,watching you, I'll be standing by your side, all you do and I won't ever leave as long as you believe, you just believe.... I'll make a wish for you and hope it will come true, if life will just be kind to such a gentle mind, and if you lose your way think back on yesterday, remember me this way, remember me this way.
Thursday, June 19, 2003
fishes are friends, not foods! erk?!
cheh aritu rupenye tak publish lagi satu karangan yang lebar pas borak ngan chek dina. tapela dah out of date, tapi nak gak publishkan ia. waa balik umoh buke net tetibe rase depressed lak, penuh dgn tekanan di sana sini. di blog org lain. di nick2 org. emel2 aduan. msgs di friendster (to pakcik: hope sume dah ok) lamanye tak rase tertekan (waa napela buke net bole kene tempias tekanan?! tit tit tit) bes bes. balik shah alam sgt sonok. penoh kegumbiraan. esp jumpe sahabat2 yg dirindui. sumeorg tade perubahan except kak ain yg makin berseri2 sbb newly-wedla katakan.. n far yg makin makin putih isyh isyh sgt comel. tetibe far jadik rummet am sem ni. cheh 24 jam melekat dgn minah tuh. skang ni tahap pandang each other, senyum/ckp 1 perkataan pon dah bole phm apa yg cube disampaikan. cukup mudah. haha. mase tolong reg bebudak part 01 terjumpe junior skola rendah. haha. camne tah die bole cam, maybe tade perubahan ketara kot. klaka. registration day sgt hectic. sungguh meletehkan. nasib baik mlm tu honey buat mkn2 (hepi befdei honey muahs) so bes bes mkn free. dah tgk nemo!!!! rating yang diberi: best kuase 5. sgt suke. sgt sgt suke. cukupla sume elements yg mampu buat am jatuh cinte: shweeet, comey, indah, lines yg witty, comel sgtla. tak larat tgk. tahap tepuk2 tgn. besnye!!! suke!!! tadi tanye die.. ikan tak sayang anak die mcm tu skali kan? kalo ye.. macam marlin syg nemo.. alahai besalahnye rase nak makan ikan. die kata, kite mknla bapak ikan jek, tapi lagi sian kat anak die kalo ilang bapak kan? camne kalo bapak kite yg kene mkn? huwaaa! (sbg seorg yg terlalu daddy's girl, saye sgt sayu haha) jadi buatla kesimpulan ikan takdela sayang kronik camtu kat anak die utk membolehkan kite tros mkn ikan. tapi! jgn ketuk2 akuarium dah lepas ni. sian fishies bergegar (sowi para ikan di pyramid bowling heh) pergh ade selera kek baru. dulu gile suke kek banana chocolate kat secret recipes tuh, skang ni tgh fanatik moist choco huwaa sedap tak ingat punye! gile aah. agen penggemukan bes bes like i care. haha. cube rase sape tak pnh rase makanye akan jatuh cinte head over heel kat kek tuh. pergh! kah kah nengok anger mngmnt gak aritu. klaka klaka. marisa tomei (mcm nasha ek pompuan tu) sgt cute. mcm bole mkn kecumilan die. satu line dr cite tu yg tetibe melekat kat kepala ialah "anger is the only thing you can't get rid of by losing it" waa gile bes. tgk gamba kawen erra fazira td. canteknye die. erk die ratu cantik kan? okay then. haha. klaka jek cite cinta kolestrol tu gile tiru cite omputih n hong kong. busan tol aa wayang kita ni. ingat khalayak wayang sume suke ke cite tak jadi camtu. am sgt sgt menyukung industri filem tempatan: slalu tgk kat wyg, slalu restraint diri dr beli vcd cite local yg pirate. tapinye, makin lama cite makin hampas jadi jgn salahkan khalayak kalo dah tamau support dah. far kata kalau org mcm am yg suke sukung pon dah takmo sukung, maka susahla. heh berat. bujang lapok bes kan kan? sukenye scene masak ayam. somehow am n far sgt suke cite2 yg ade scene2 masak tak tau nape. tahpape. waah banyaknye bebel, banyak cite caca merba, sume penangan kuey teow pak ayob smlm. kah kah energetic tuh.. tak abis lagi bateri membebel. tapela malas dah. esok pulok. konklusi arini: saye sgt sayang kawan2 saye. makanye, farah hanani, mardziatun nisa', mardiah hayati, mardiana, farah ezlin, jannatul naemah, hanizah, iza farhana.. je t'aime beaucoup! eheh.
cheh aritu rupenye tak publish lagi satu karangan yang lebar pas borak ngan chek dina. tapela dah out of date, tapi nak gak publishkan ia. waa balik umoh buke net tetibe rase depressed lak, penuh dgn tekanan di sana sini. di blog org lain. di nick2 org. emel2 aduan. msgs di friendster (to pakcik: hope sume dah ok) lamanye tak rase tertekan (waa napela buke net bole kene tempias tekanan?! tit tit tit) bes bes. balik shah alam sgt sonok. penoh kegumbiraan. esp jumpe sahabat2 yg dirindui. sumeorg tade perubahan except kak ain yg makin berseri2 sbb newly-wedla katakan.. n far yg makin makin putih isyh isyh sgt comel. tetibe far jadik rummet am sem ni. cheh 24 jam melekat dgn minah tuh. skang ni tahap pandang each other, senyum/ckp 1 perkataan pon dah bole phm apa yg cube disampaikan. cukup mudah. haha. mase tolong reg bebudak part 01 terjumpe junior skola rendah. haha. camne tah die bole cam, maybe tade perubahan ketara kot. klaka. registration day sgt hectic. sungguh meletehkan. nasib baik mlm tu honey buat mkn2 (hepi befdei honey muahs) so bes bes mkn free. dah tgk nemo!!!! rating yang diberi: best kuase 5. sgt suke. sgt sgt suke. cukupla sume elements yg mampu buat am jatuh cinte: shweeet, comey, indah, lines yg witty, comel sgtla. tak larat tgk. tahap tepuk2 tgn. besnye!!! suke!!! tadi tanye die.. ikan tak sayang anak die mcm tu skali kan? kalo ye.. macam marlin syg nemo.. alahai besalahnye rase nak makan ikan. die kata, kite mknla bapak ikan jek, tapi lagi sian kat anak die kalo ilang bapak kan? camne kalo bapak kite yg kene mkn? huwaaa! (sbg seorg yg terlalu daddy's girl, saye sgt sayu haha) jadi buatla kesimpulan ikan takdela sayang kronik camtu kat anak die utk membolehkan kite tros mkn ikan. tapi! jgn ketuk2 akuarium dah lepas ni. sian fishies bergegar (sowi para ikan di pyramid bowling heh) pergh ade selera kek baru. dulu gile suke kek banana chocolate kat secret recipes tuh, skang ni tgh fanatik moist choco huwaa sedap tak ingat punye! gile aah. agen penggemukan bes bes like i care. haha. cube rase sape tak pnh rase makanye akan jatuh cinte head over heel kat kek tuh. pergh! kah kah nengok anger mngmnt gak aritu. klaka klaka. marisa tomei (mcm nasha ek pompuan tu) sgt cute. mcm bole mkn kecumilan die. satu line dr cite tu yg tetibe melekat kat kepala ialah "anger is the only thing you can't get rid of by losing it" waa gile bes. tgk gamba kawen erra fazira td. canteknye die. erk die ratu cantik kan? okay then. haha. klaka jek cite cinta kolestrol tu gile tiru cite omputih n hong kong. busan tol aa wayang kita ni. ingat khalayak wayang sume suke ke cite tak jadi camtu. am sgt sgt menyukung industri filem tempatan: slalu tgk kat wyg, slalu restraint diri dr beli vcd cite local yg pirate. tapinye, makin lama cite makin hampas jadi jgn salahkan khalayak kalo dah tamau support dah. far kata kalau org mcm am yg suke sukung pon dah takmo sukung, maka susahla. heh berat. bujang lapok bes kan kan? sukenye scene masak ayam. somehow am n far sgt suke cite2 yg ade scene2 masak tak tau nape. tahpape. waah banyaknye bebel, banyak cite caca merba, sume penangan kuey teow pak ayob smlm. kah kah energetic tuh.. tak abis lagi bateri membebel. tapela malas dah. esok pulok. konklusi arini: saye sgt sayang kawan2 saye. makanye, farah hanani, mardziatun nisa', mardiah hayati, mardiana, farah ezlin, jannatul naemah, hanizah, iza farhana.. je t'aime beaucoup! eheh.
Sunday, June 15, 2003
Hanya Yakin Menunggu JawabNya..
"hanya namamu di hatiku. jiwa dan raga takkan berubah. namun terkadang cinta terusik benci sesaat" mendapat cahaya pencerahan arini thanks to my dear madu. dptla sket closure. "andai ku bisa mengulang semua hingga tiada org curiga, tapi tak mungkin ku tak berdaya" tapi tu la.. certain mende kan is better left unsaid. the more u know.. (esp utk org yg suke pikir merepek macam daku ini), adalah lebeh merbahaya. heh. apa2pon the moral of the stori is (or spt yg kak zai my previous criminal lecturer suke kata "the moral of the stori which is immoral is.." sori far, cliche eh? eheh) kalo kite rase kite kenal kawan kite, kite kene try utk support die in every ways yg possible, bukan main taram aje. (no offence eh madu tersayang.. ko lgpon kejap je kan taram.. haha sayang ko.. ko lah sinar aku. muahs. ahaks) hmm so many pains to endure dlm idup ni.. kat kekwnla nak tumpang kasih.. (sayang ko, far.. sungguh ni haha) kenapala mende2 yg indah ni mesti ade rintangan ek? jawapannye ialah: supaya kite lebeh menghargai mende tuh. kan? mcm makan maggy. kalo mkn sesorg mesti rase cam biase dan susah sgt nak abiskan. kalo share ngan far mesti lahap ajek sbb cam kene berebut kan.. ade rintangan sket.. so lebeh bes aa. haha bes tak analogi? trust. it is a big big thing yang sgt sgt crucial dlm relationship. tp in the 1st placepon, kalo kite tak trust die, takkanla kite nak masuk dlm r'ship tuh kan.. tp tu lah.. kekdg ckp2 org sekeliling bole kasik kesan gak camne utuh pon kepercayaan kite tuh kan. esp utk r'ship yg masih greeeeeeen lagik. eheh. (can love be measured by the hours in a day?) tu pasalla kene keep kasik kekuatan kat each other.. esp if ur involve dlm LD r'ship.. as if r'ship biase is not complicated enough.. nak gak involve dgn yg double complicated. apa sbbnye? napa org nak take the risk? *clear throat* ahaks. sbbnye mcm die kata.. mende2 ni bukan bole main cari2.. main grab2 sesuko ati.. "kasih kau hadir tiada terduga" ct nyanyi.. ia adalah takdir. takdir. takdir. takdir. *senyum sampai dahi mcm smiley yg am suke lukih* eheh. "nape tak bangun tido lagi ni dear? owang nak ckp ngan die ni." eheh. tak taula. seperti smlm, emosi bercampur baur. serba tak kena. esok nak balik s.alam. seminggu lagi kot baru dpt update mende alah ni. dah aa lately ni makin merepek dan membusankan aje penulisan. lama sgt terperok dlm umah kot. haha. bes bes blk s.alam bole bergumbire! 1st week slalunye tade pepe sgt. bes bes ade satu list movies yg panjang sgt yg wajib ditonton.. sumenye ketinggalan zaman dah ah nasib aah wek. haha. gile. dah aa nak tido.. esok nak bgn awal.. drive pagi2 bute.. huwargh malasnye saye.. to my madu, my kindy far, and my dear, am sayang korang. ahaks. "andai ku bisa mengulang semula, ku pasti tiada yang terluka, tapi tak mungkin ku tak berdaya, hanya yakin menunggu jawabNya" eheh. *senyum simpul sambil role mata wekk*
"hanya namamu di hatiku. jiwa dan raga takkan berubah. namun terkadang cinta terusik benci sesaat" mendapat cahaya pencerahan arini thanks to my dear madu. dptla sket closure. "andai ku bisa mengulang semua hingga tiada org curiga, tapi tak mungkin ku tak berdaya" tapi tu la.. certain mende kan is better left unsaid. the more u know.. (esp utk org yg suke pikir merepek macam daku ini), adalah lebeh merbahaya. heh. apa2pon the moral of the stori is (or spt yg kak zai my previous criminal lecturer suke kata "the moral of the stori which is immoral is.." sori far, cliche eh? eheh) kalo kite rase kite kenal kawan kite, kite kene try utk support die in every ways yg possible, bukan main taram aje. (no offence eh madu tersayang.. ko lgpon kejap je kan taram.. haha sayang ko.. ko lah sinar aku. muahs. ahaks) hmm so many pains to endure dlm idup ni.. kat kekwnla nak tumpang kasih.. (sayang ko, far.. sungguh ni haha) kenapala mende2 yg indah ni mesti ade rintangan ek? jawapannye ialah: supaya kite lebeh menghargai mende tuh. kan? mcm makan maggy. kalo mkn sesorg mesti rase cam biase dan susah sgt nak abiskan. kalo share ngan far mesti lahap ajek sbb cam kene berebut kan.. ade rintangan sket.. so lebeh bes aa. haha bes tak analogi? trust. it is a big big thing yang sgt sgt crucial dlm relationship. tp in the 1st placepon, kalo kite tak trust die, takkanla kite nak masuk dlm r'ship tuh kan.. tp tu lah.. kekdg ckp2 org sekeliling bole kasik kesan gak camne utuh pon kepercayaan kite tuh kan. esp utk r'ship yg masih greeeeeeen lagik. eheh. (can love be measured by the hours in a day?) tu pasalla kene keep kasik kekuatan kat each other.. esp if ur involve dlm LD r'ship.. as if r'ship biase is not complicated enough.. nak gak involve dgn yg double complicated. apa sbbnye? napa org nak take the risk? *clear throat* ahaks. sbbnye mcm die kata.. mende2 ni bukan bole main cari2.. main grab2 sesuko ati.. "kasih kau hadir tiada terduga" ct nyanyi.. ia adalah takdir. takdir. takdir. takdir. *senyum sampai dahi mcm smiley yg am suke lukih* eheh. "nape tak bangun tido lagi ni dear? owang nak ckp ngan die ni." eheh. tak taula. seperti smlm, emosi bercampur baur. serba tak kena. esok nak balik s.alam. seminggu lagi kot baru dpt update mende alah ni. dah aa lately ni makin merepek dan membusankan aje penulisan. lama sgt terperok dlm umah kot. haha. bes bes blk s.alam bole bergumbire! 1st week slalunye tade pepe sgt. bes bes ade satu list movies yg panjang sgt yg wajib ditonton.. sumenye ketinggalan zaman dah ah nasib aah wek. haha. gile. dah aa nak tido.. esok nak bgn awal.. drive pagi2 bute.. huwargh malasnye saye.. to my madu, my kindy far, and my dear, am sayang korang. ahaks. "andai ku bisa mengulang semula, ku pasti tiada yang terluka, tapi tak mungkin ku tak berdaya, hanya yakin menunggu jawabNya" eheh. *senyum simpul sambil role mata wekk*
Saturday, June 14, 2003
THE POWER OF NOW
lalalala. sungguhlah tak paham dgn emosi sendiri. tak tahu sekarang ni apa yg emosi cube sampaikan. mixed up sumenye. ade rase bahagia yang amat. ade rase tak keruan. rase melancholy pon ade. dan yang tak penah takde.. rase paranoid. woohoo. or lebeh tepat lagi neurosis ek? paranoid adalah satu keadaan di mana sufferer merasakan sumeorg mistreat die sbb benci die. bukan kot. neurosis lak ialah keadaan di mana sufferer suke manipulate sume bende sekeliling dan suke imagine things dan percaya dalam otak sendiri yg mende2 tu betol. ahah! that's more likely kot. dalam buku the power of now (PON) milik far (kan aku dah kata far.. blog ni mcm tribute utk ko.. mahaguru seh haha) our mind ni tricky sgt.. pandai sgt mempermainkan kite. kalo kite tak control die, maka mind ni akan control kite dan buat kite percaya macam2. exactly what i'm suffering from. haha. marliza, controlla minda anda! bes gak PON tu ajar kite mcm mana nak kawal otak, nak pikir utk mase sekarang aje dan jgn bebankan otak dgn mende2 esok, luse, future yg tak semestinye lagi berlaku. e.g. luse nak xm kan. jgn takutkan diri dr skrg. sure, blaja sbb tahu that's the right thing to do, tapi jgn asek2 mengeluh "takutnye takutnye" etc etc. kekdg try gak apply ngan far, bile suke pikir lelebeh jek, jerit kat each other "PON kin PON" haha mujarab gak. tapi tu la.. mmgla susah. maybe kene baca buku tu slalu2 kot baru boleh berjaya. haha as if. esok kene balik skolah. ade briefing utk sesapa yg nak help with registration day tuh. waa kol 10 tuh. gile awal. dengki tol. kalola tak kasik undertakings lagi kat wahida and dod, mmgla malas. haha. huhuhu nak setat belajar dah balik?! tidak!!!! tapi besnye nak jumpe kekwn! nak qada' tgk wayang. nak qada' borak.. mesti nanti borak tahap breathless.. rindunye kat sume! bes gak subjects this sem. criminal law 2, land law 2, criminal procedure, mooting (waa blaja camne nak handle cases dlm court.. bes bes), equity 2, ntah apa ntah lagi tak ingat. hmm berbalik kpd PON, itula pasal orang suke elak dari bincang2 sgt.. the power of now la.. alololo.. heheh.. alasan alasan.. ye ye.. live for the moment. bes bes. huwaa bantula orang! "sometimes it's hard to keep on running. it works so hard to keep on going. don't make we want to give up" hehe comeynye gwen. dahla.. cukupla merepek.. lalalala..
lalalala. sungguhlah tak paham dgn emosi sendiri. tak tahu sekarang ni apa yg emosi cube sampaikan. mixed up sumenye. ade rase bahagia yang amat. ade rase tak keruan. rase melancholy pon ade. dan yang tak penah takde.. rase paranoid. woohoo. or lebeh tepat lagi neurosis ek? paranoid adalah satu keadaan di mana sufferer merasakan sumeorg mistreat die sbb benci die. bukan kot. neurosis lak ialah keadaan di mana sufferer suke manipulate sume bende sekeliling dan suke imagine things dan percaya dalam otak sendiri yg mende2 tu betol. ahah! that's more likely kot. dalam buku the power of now (PON) milik far (kan aku dah kata far.. blog ni mcm tribute utk ko.. mahaguru seh haha) our mind ni tricky sgt.. pandai sgt mempermainkan kite. kalo kite tak control die, maka mind ni akan control kite dan buat kite percaya macam2. exactly what i'm suffering from. haha. marliza, controlla minda anda! bes gak PON tu ajar kite mcm mana nak kawal otak, nak pikir utk mase sekarang aje dan jgn bebankan otak dgn mende2 esok, luse, future yg tak semestinye lagi berlaku. e.g. luse nak xm kan. jgn takutkan diri dr skrg. sure, blaja sbb tahu that's the right thing to do, tapi jgn asek2 mengeluh "takutnye takutnye" etc etc. kekdg try gak apply ngan far, bile suke pikir lelebeh jek, jerit kat each other "PON kin PON" haha mujarab gak. tapi tu la.. mmgla susah. maybe kene baca buku tu slalu2 kot baru boleh berjaya. haha as if. esok kene balik skolah. ade briefing utk sesapa yg nak help with registration day tuh. waa kol 10 tuh. gile awal. dengki tol. kalola tak kasik undertakings lagi kat wahida and dod, mmgla malas. haha. huhuhu nak setat belajar dah balik?! tidak!!!! tapi besnye nak jumpe kekwn! nak qada' tgk wayang. nak qada' borak.. mesti nanti borak tahap breathless.. rindunye kat sume! bes gak subjects this sem. criminal law 2, land law 2, criminal procedure, mooting (waa blaja camne nak handle cases dlm court.. bes bes), equity 2, ntah apa ntah lagi tak ingat. hmm berbalik kpd PON, itula pasal orang suke elak dari bincang2 sgt.. the power of now la.. alololo.. heheh.. alasan alasan.. ye ye.. live for the moment. bes bes. huwaa bantula orang! "sometimes it's hard to keep on running. it works so hard to keep on going. don't make we want to give up" hehe comeynye gwen. dahla.. cukupla merepek.. lalalala..
Thursday, June 12, 2003
i've been searching my soul oo yea..
haha i lurve ally mcbeal. simply because she's so comel petite comel, a bumbling character yang suke sangat berangan mengarut-ngarut, a klutz at best oo yea, dan sgt sgt neurotic. somehow i find pompuan yg neurotic macam ally, lorelai, dan sandra bullock (dlm most of her movies) sgt fun dan bes. ally tuh.. haha plizla.. she's got almost everything yg org nak. comel lote, bijak bistari, independent, duit duit duit, network persahabatan yg sungguh bes, tempat hangout yg sgt bes selepas sehari keje, sumela.. except for 1 mende yg die paling nak tapi tak penahnye jumpe i.e. the right man. sian die. sob. larry paul.. previous bf die.. is like a dream guy (suke!) bes aa encik tuh.. just because he's so cute, witty, bijak, baik, caring, romantic, klaka.. bes bes. tapi tuh pon ally tak puas ati. nih skang tgh dgn victor pon tak puas ati. gaduh sbb victor suke selulit tapi ally takde?! haha. rewind balik.. suke selulit? woohoo bes bes takyah exercise. haha. read somewhere yg ally punye prob ni sebenanye berpunce sbb die ade sindrom2 tertentu seperti 1)masih attached dan obsessed dgn kngn cinte lama, 2)die ade her own romantic myth yg nak kene penuhi dan 3)she is too jaded utk percaya yg die akan jumpe true love.. i.e. she is too afraid to love. sindrom nombo 3.. am bole relate sket (cite before jumpe die ye.. hehe) emode kata am ade masalah too afraid to get hurt again. heheh. the right one? meant to be? camne nak tahu for sure? dlm cite it had to be you kata, "there's no such thing as 'meant to be'. you've got to make it meant to be. if she's worth spending your life with, then she's worth fighting for." far my kindy kata, the right one.. bukanla someone yg perfect.. tapi someone yg perfect utk diri kite.. macam puzzle kan.. fit together dgn mudah dan cantek jek. tak semestinye die kene jadik puzzle yg sempurna.. asalkan die fit sempurna dgn puzzle kite.. oklah. idup musti hepi. hehe. ooh.. berbalik kpd ally. some ppl kata die susah nak dpt steady bf sbb she is sooooo successful.. biasela tuh.. successful woman, angry men. haha frankly, lelaki2 sebegitu sgt selfish dan pengecut sbb die tanak rase 2nd best selepas his girl. huh?! btw being successful tuh camne ek? apa sebenanye kejayaan? lain org lainla deskripsi kejayaan. org yg ambitious, org yg undemanding, menteri pendidikan 2020, makcik jual nasik lemak kat koop, ct nurhaliza, malah marliza yanti, sume ade definition masing2 tentang kejayaan. tapi am sgt2 bersetuju dg definisi success yg diberikan oleh chicken soup ni: "what is success? to laugh often and much. to win the appreciation of intelligent ppl and the affection of children. kan? to earn the appreciation of honest critics and endure the betrayal of false friends. to appreciate beauty and to find beauty in others. sukung! haha. to leave the world a bit better whether by a healthy child, or a garden patch, or a redeemed social condition. to know even one life has breathed easier because you have lived. this is to have succeeded." bes tak? bes kan. insightful. heheh. kekdg bile kite dizapped oleh kejadian2 tertentu buat kite berpikir sket. cthnye kelmarin.. result.. pointer saye sgt ok, but then as expected, bel melukekan jiwe. tade idea nak write maka tampal poem Allah knows best tuh. tapi mama far slalu kata, dlm idup ni, tak bolela sume nak rose coloured glass, kekdg ada peristiwa2 yg kasik bengkak sket hati supaya kite bole stop, dan berfikir. kalo tak penah kene uji dgn Allah, mksdnye Allah tak pandang kite.. org yg diuji Allah tu.. sbb Allah tahu org2 tuh boleh endure cobaan2 Dia. kan kan? syukurla. izyan iryani penah tulis kat am yang sometimes mmgla kite wish yg kite ade someone else's life, her pretty face, her plenty riches, sume tuh.. tapi kite kene ingat yang behind every ray of sunshine there is always a drop of rain. tade org perfect. sume org ade prob sendiri. makanye hakunamatata! haha. problem-free phylosophy. alangkah bahagianye. hahaha. ally pon dah abis kat astro. banyaknye bebel mengarut2. pesal tak fokus nih? byk gile topic. naseb aah. haha. stop am stop.. erk.. lapar nak lunch.. arini kene masak sendiri *sigh hahaha
haha i lurve ally mcbeal. simply because she's so comel petite comel, a bumbling character yang suke sangat berangan mengarut-ngarut, a klutz at best oo yea, dan sgt sgt neurotic. somehow i find pompuan yg neurotic macam ally, lorelai, dan sandra bullock (dlm most of her movies) sgt fun dan bes. ally tuh.. haha plizla.. she's got almost everything yg org nak. comel lote, bijak bistari, independent, duit duit duit, network persahabatan yg sungguh bes, tempat hangout yg sgt bes selepas sehari keje, sumela.. except for 1 mende yg die paling nak tapi tak penahnye jumpe i.e. the right man. sian die. sob. larry paul.. previous bf die.. is like a dream guy (suke!) bes aa encik tuh.. just because he's so cute, witty, bijak, baik, caring, romantic, klaka.. bes bes. tapi tuh pon ally tak puas ati. nih skang tgh dgn victor pon tak puas ati. gaduh sbb victor suke selulit tapi ally takde?! haha. rewind balik.. suke selulit? woohoo bes bes takyah exercise. haha. read somewhere yg ally punye prob ni sebenanye berpunce sbb die ade sindrom2 tertentu seperti 1)masih attached dan obsessed dgn kngn cinte lama, 2)die ade her own romantic myth yg nak kene penuhi dan 3)she is too jaded utk percaya yg die akan jumpe true love.. i.e. she is too afraid to love. sindrom nombo 3.. am bole relate sket (cite before jumpe die ye.. hehe) emode kata am ade masalah too afraid to get hurt again. heheh. the right one? meant to be? camne nak tahu for sure? dlm cite it had to be you kata, "there's no such thing as 'meant to be'. you've got to make it meant to be. if she's worth spending your life with, then she's worth fighting for." far my kindy kata, the right one.. bukanla someone yg perfect.. tapi someone yg perfect utk diri kite.. macam puzzle kan.. fit together dgn mudah dan cantek jek. tak semestinye die kene jadik puzzle yg sempurna.. asalkan die fit sempurna dgn puzzle kite.. oklah. idup musti hepi. hehe. ooh.. berbalik kpd ally. some ppl kata die susah nak dpt steady bf sbb she is sooooo successful.. biasela tuh.. successful woman, angry men. haha frankly, lelaki2 sebegitu sgt selfish dan pengecut sbb die tanak rase 2nd best selepas his girl. huh?! btw being successful tuh camne ek? apa sebenanye kejayaan? lain org lainla deskripsi kejayaan. org yg ambitious, org yg undemanding, menteri pendidikan 2020, makcik jual nasik lemak kat koop, ct nurhaliza, malah marliza yanti, sume ade definition masing2 tentang kejayaan. tapi am sgt2 bersetuju dg definisi success yg diberikan oleh chicken soup ni: "what is success? to laugh often and much. to win the appreciation of intelligent ppl and the affection of children. kan? to earn the appreciation of honest critics and endure the betrayal of false friends. to appreciate beauty and to find beauty in others. sukung! haha. to leave the world a bit better whether by a healthy child, or a garden patch, or a redeemed social condition. to know even one life has breathed easier because you have lived. this is to have succeeded." bes tak? bes kan. insightful. heheh. kekdg bile kite dizapped oleh kejadian2 tertentu buat kite berpikir sket. cthnye kelmarin.. result.. pointer saye sgt ok, but then as expected, bel melukekan jiwe. tade idea nak write maka tampal poem Allah knows best tuh. tapi mama far slalu kata, dlm idup ni, tak bolela sume nak rose coloured glass, kekdg ada peristiwa2 yg kasik bengkak sket hati supaya kite bole stop, dan berfikir. kalo tak penah kene uji dgn Allah, mksdnye Allah tak pandang kite.. org yg diuji Allah tu.. sbb Allah tahu org2 tuh boleh endure cobaan2 Dia. kan kan? syukurla. izyan iryani penah tulis kat am yang sometimes mmgla kite wish yg kite ade someone else's life, her pretty face, her plenty riches, sume tuh.. tapi kite kene ingat yang behind every ray of sunshine there is always a drop of rain. tade org perfect. sume org ade prob sendiri. makanye hakunamatata! haha. problem-free phylosophy. alangkah bahagianye. hahaha. ally pon dah abis kat astro. banyaknye bebel mengarut2. pesal tak fokus nih? byk gile topic. naseb aah. haha. stop am stop.. erk.. lapar nak lunch.. arini kene masak sendiri *sigh hahaha
Tuesday, June 10, 2003
Allah Knows Best
Allah knows what's best for us
So why should we complain?
We always want the sunshine
But He knows there must be rain
We always want the laughter
And the merriment of cheer
But our heart will lose its tenderness
If we never shed a tear
Allah tests us often with suffering and with sorrow
He tests us not to punish us
But to help us meet tomorrow
For growing trees are strenghthen
If they withstand the storm
And the sharp cut of the chisel
Gave the marble grace and form
Allah tests us often
And for every pain He gives to us
(Provided we're patient) is followed by rich gain
So whenever we are down
And we feel that everything is going wrong
It is just Allah's way
To make our spirit strong.
Allah knows what's best for us
So why should we complain?
We always want the sunshine
But He knows there must be rain
We always want the laughter
And the merriment of cheer
But our heart will lose its tenderness
If we never shed a tear
Allah tests us often with suffering and with sorrow
He tests us not to punish us
But to help us meet tomorrow
For growing trees are strenghthen
If they withstand the storm
And the sharp cut of the chisel
Gave the marble grace and form
Allah tests us often
And for every pain He gives to us
(Provided we're patient) is followed by rich gain
So whenever we are down
And we feel that everything is going wrong
It is just Allah's way
To make our spirit strong.
Monday, June 09, 2003
Because We're An 'Us'
ini adalah lines dari the last scene from cite yang Am sangat2 suke.. cite yang telah berjaya buat Am menangis teresak-esak tak ingat punye. hehe. Am esp suke part Katie ckp "Because that pith helmet girl is still in here - "BEE-BOO, BEE-BOO!" And I didn't even know she existed until I met you. And if you leave, I may never see her again - even though I said at times you beat her out of me." so swit sbb before tu die blame Ben sbb buat die miserable bla bla tapi baru die sedar yg in the 1st place Ben lah yg telah brought out the best in her.. bes bes.. here goes.. The Story of Us..
Because We're An "Us"
written by Alan Zweibel & Jessie Nelson
Katie: I think we should go to Chow Fun's.
(Ben stops.)
Ben (sotto): Chow Fun's? I thought we agreed we couldn't really talk at Chow Fun's.
(Katie looking deep into his eyes, responds.)
Katie: I know.
(Ben crosses over to her.)
Ben: What are you saying?
Katie: (with resolve) I'm saying Chow Fun's.
Ben: Are you saying Chow Fun's because you don't want to face telling the kids? Because if that's why you're saying Chow Fun's, don't say Chow Fun's.
Katie: That's not why I'm saying Chow Fun's. I'm saying Chow Fun's because we're an "us". There's a history and histories don't happen overnight. In Mesopotamia or Ancient Troy or somewhere back there, there were cities built on top of other cities, but I don't want to build another city. I like this city. I know where we keep the Bactine, and what kind of mood you're in when you wake up by which eyebrow is higher. And you always know that I'm a little quiet in the morning and compensate accordingly. That's a dance you perfect over time. And it's hard, it's much harder than I thought it would be, but there's more good than bad. And you don't just give up. And it's not for the sake of the children, but they're great kids aren't they? And we made them - I mean think about that - there were no people there and then there were people - two of them. And they grew. And I won't be able to say to some stranger, "Josh has your hands" or "Remember how Erin threw up at the Lincoln Memorial?" So what if that stranger listens to me? I mean, Lucas Adler listens but then he always says "between you and I" and it should be "between you and me" because "between" is a preposition. And it's not that there's not a charming part about you not remembering the washer fluid - which I don't understand why you can't - but that's not ultimately important. I'll try to remember that those things can be mildly endearing at times and really not worth not having sex over. And I'll try to relax. I mean is it the end of the world to have sex when you don't totally feel like it? There are all kinds of sex, aren't there? Comfort sex, tender sex, relief sex, "I'm not in the mood, but you are" sex...And let's face it, anybody is going to have traits that get on your nerves, why shouldn't it be your annoying traits? I'm no day at the beach, but I do have a good sense of direction so at least I can find the beach, but that's not a criticism of you, it's just a strength of mine. And you're a good friend and good friends are hard to find. Charlotte in "Charlotte's Web" said that and I love the way you read that to Erin - when you take on the voice of Wilbur the pig with such commitment even when you're bone tired. It speaks volumes about character. And ultimately isn't that what it comes down to? What a person's made of at the end of the day? Because that pith helmet girl is still in here - "BEE-BOO, BEE-BOO!" And I didn't even know she existed until I met you. And if you leave, I may never see her again - even though I said at times you beat her out of me - Isn't that the paradox? Haven't we hit the essential paradox? Give and take, push and pull, yin and yang, the best of times, the worst of times. I think Dickens said it best. It's the Jack Sprat of it, he could eat no fat, his wife could eat no lean, but that doesn't really apply here. Does it? I mean I guess what I'm trying to say is - I'm saying Chow Fun's because I love you.
(After a beat, Ben explodes with sheer joy, grabs Katie and kisses her passionately. We see Josh and Erin watching their parents stunned at their behavior.)
(Ben and Katie start getting into the car, as do the kids.)
dan seperti sume cite yang Am suke.. it has a perfect happy ending (yg tak cliche!) .. beshnye!
ini adalah lines dari the last scene from cite yang Am sangat2 suke.. cite yang telah berjaya buat Am menangis teresak-esak tak ingat punye. hehe. Am esp suke part Katie ckp "Because that pith helmet girl is still in here - "BEE-BOO, BEE-BOO!" And I didn't even know she existed until I met you. And if you leave, I may never see her again - even though I said at times you beat her out of me." so swit sbb before tu die blame Ben sbb buat die miserable bla bla tapi baru die sedar yg in the 1st place Ben lah yg telah brought out the best in her.. bes bes.. here goes.. The Story of Us..
Because We're An "Us"
written by Alan Zweibel & Jessie Nelson
Katie: I think we should go to Chow Fun's.
(Ben stops.)
Ben (sotto): Chow Fun's? I thought we agreed we couldn't really talk at Chow Fun's.
(Katie looking deep into his eyes, responds.)
Katie: I know.
(Ben crosses over to her.)
Ben: What are you saying?
Katie: (with resolve) I'm saying Chow Fun's.
Ben: Are you saying Chow Fun's because you don't want to face telling the kids? Because if that's why you're saying Chow Fun's, don't say Chow Fun's.
Katie: That's not why I'm saying Chow Fun's. I'm saying Chow Fun's because we're an "us". There's a history and histories don't happen overnight. In Mesopotamia or Ancient Troy or somewhere back there, there were cities built on top of other cities, but I don't want to build another city. I like this city. I know where we keep the Bactine, and what kind of mood you're in when you wake up by which eyebrow is higher. And you always know that I'm a little quiet in the morning and compensate accordingly. That's a dance you perfect over time. And it's hard, it's much harder than I thought it would be, but there's more good than bad. And you don't just give up. And it's not for the sake of the children, but they're great kids aren't they? And we made them - I mean think about that - there were no people there and then there were people - two of them. And they grew. And I won't be able to say to some stranger, "Josh has your hands" or "Remember how Erin threw up at the Lincoln Memorial?" So what if that stranger listens to me? I mean, Lucas Adler listens but then he always says "between you and I" and it should be "between you and me" because "between" is a preposition. And it's not that there's not a charming part about you not remembering the washer fluid - which I don't understand why you can't - but that's not ultimately important. I'll try to remember that those things can be mildly endearing at times and really not worth not having sex over. And I'll try to relax. I mean is it the end of the world to have sex when you don't totally feel like it? There are all kinds of sex, aren't there? Comfort sex, tender sex, relief sex, "I'm not in the mood, but you are" sex...And let's face it, anybody is going to have traits that get on your nerves, why shouldn't it be your annoying traits? I'm no day at the beach, but I do have a good sense of direction so at least I can find the beach, but that's not a criticism of you, it's just a strength of mine. And you're a good friend and good friends are hard to find. Charlotte in "Charlotte's Web" said that and I love the way you read that to Erin - when you take on the voice of Wilbur the pig with such commitment even when you're bone tired. It speaks volumes about character. And ultimately isn't that what it comes down to? What a person's made of at the end of the day? Because that pith helmet girl is still in here - "BEE-BOO, BEE-BOO!" And I didn't even know she existed until I met you. And if you leave, I may never see her again - even though I said at times you beat her out of me - Isn't that the paradox? Haven't we hit the essential paradox? Give and take, push and pull, yin and yang, the best of times, the worst of times. I think Dickens said it best. It's the Jack Sprat of it, he could eat no fat, his wife could eat no lean, but that doesn't really apply here. Does it? I mean I guess what I'm trying to say is - I'm saying Chow Fun's because I love you.
(After a beat, Ben explodes with sheer joy, grabs Katie and kisses her passionately. We see Josh and Erin watching their parents stunned at their behavior.)
(Ben and Katie start getting into the car, as do the kids.)
dan seperti sume cite yang Am suke.. it has a perfect happy ending (yg tak cliche!) .. beshnye!
Sunday, June 08, 2003
Tit Tit Tit, Emotional Baggage dan Untukmu
tit tit tit is a term invented by my dear Kindy sbg amaran (ala2 bip bip ultraman) kalo tetibe rase self esteem merudum ke darjat yang maha rendah. ni mcm amaran utk kekwn sekeliling utk menjlnkan tanggungjawab sbg seorg kwn yg baik dgn melakukan apa2 utk buat kite feel good about diri kite. haha. hence, the onus is on kawan2! i have to admit, walau camna cube positif pon (owang postif aa, cume paranoid jek.. bole eh camtu? hehe) tapi kekdg tit tit tit peribadiku berbunyi juge esp. kalo ade org sekeliling yg wat pepe kenyataan. as much as we force ourself utk pikir dgn positif bahawa diorg hanye buat passing statements sahaja tanpa membawa pepe mksd.. kite pasti akan terkesan jugak.. simply because kite adalah manusia biase.. kite value pendapat org lain dan melekat jugak kat hati. tapi itula gunenye kekwn, n as for moi, kaunseling far pon cukup nak naikkan balik self esteem diri. sape setuju angkat tangan! hehe whitney houston mesti sukung am sbb die nyanyi "when u got frens to wish u well there comes a point when u will exhale". hehe. bottom line, everytime tit tit tit berbunyik, kite kene ingat slalu to count our blessings (hehe e.g ada famili yang bahagia, ade soulmate dan kekwn tersayang.. etc etc aaa) instead of feeling sorry utk diri sendiri utk flaws yg ade. kan? tit tit tit bole dihindari dgn menjeritkan satu word ke dalam otak i.e. SYUKUR! haha cakap memang aa senang, praktikalnye?! tapi then again, itula besnye ade kekwn.. to sing back our song kat kite when we've forgotten the words..
emo baggage? aritu a fren of mine wrote to me pasal camne die heran dan kagum kat ppl yg bole move on dlm idup tanpa pikir blk apa yg penah berlaku in the past, i.e tanpa sume emo-baggage-thingy tu. she was not referring to me particularly, tapi somehow i can relate jugak kat situ. hehe. the reason (utk tidak membawa beban emosi ke dalam idup masa kini) is simple: kite tak tahu sampai bile kite idup. makanye kite kenela cube idup sebaik dan sebahagia yang mungkin. kalo nak pikir sgt pasal masa silam.. nak rase emo-emo lebeh2, salahkan org lain atas pe yg blaku kat kite etc etc, camne la nak bahagia?! yg penting diri kite sendiri kite bebaskan diri dr cengkaman cite lama. beban emosi hanye akan mengundang bengkak kat hati, maka ia perlu ditinggalkan kat belakang. mr alfred suke kata "burn the bridge" jadi bakarlah (bukan in literal sense ye) sume yg dah lepas. sure, simpanla memori indah2 buat undang senyum + pengajaran2 yg kite dpt dr kesilapan2 yg penah dibuat. moi for instance, takmo dah pandang blkg, tuding jari sapa salah sapa betol, sindrom2 "die ruined my life" sbb am sedar yg camne pon fungsi org lain dlm keadaan2 yg am was put into, am mmg ade sket (kalo tak byk) role dlm tu.. for letting whoever they are la to treat me such way. salah saye juge. maka utk idup dgn gembire, buangla mende2 busuk dlm ati camtu. hehe. read an interesting article yesterday (weh besnye) tajuk 'is your man paying for your ex's sin?' artikel ni cite pasal idup pas break up sebenanye.. die kata getting over is not about seeking revenge. betolla tu. sbb dendam.. as sweet as it could be.. undang sengsara kat diri sendiri gak. maka the best way is to feel indifferent.. you wake up one day and think "i really cared about that?!" dan kite akan gelak kat diri sendiri sbb kite tahu worthless sgt dendam2 nih. baik buat tak tahu jek. instead of rase tak sonok, hati bengkak, imaginasi2 'what if', kite akan move on dalam idup dgn gembire. insyaAllah..
this is for you dear.. heheh.. kita bersama mengejar mimpi terpisah sementara ku pasti suatu hari nanti cinta kita bersemi kembali menerangi kekal di taman hati walaupun jauh pandangan mata ku yakin kau kan tetap setia begitulah ku jua keikhlasan di jiwa dan cintaku hanyalah untukmu.. hahaha..
tit tit tit is a term invented by my dear Kindy sbg amaran (ala2 bip bip ultraman) kalo tetibe rase self esteem merudum ke darjat yang maha rendah. ni mcm amaran utk kekwn sekeliling utk menjlnkan tanggungjawab sbg seorg kwn yg baik dgn melakukan apa2 utk buat kite feel good about diri kite. haha. hence, the onus is on kawan2! i have to admit, walau camna cube positif pon (owang postif aa, cume paranoid jek.. bole eh camtu? hehe) tapi kekdg tit tit tit peribadiku berbunyi juge esp. kalo ade org sekeliling yg wat pepe kenyataan. as much as we force ourself utk pikir dgn positif bahawa diorg hanye buat passing statements sahaja tanpa membawa pepe mksd.. kite pasti akan terkesan jugak.. simply because kite adalah manusia biase.. kite value pendapat org lain dan melekat jugak kat hati. tapi itula gunenye kekwn, n as for moi, kaunseling far pon cukup nak naikkan balik self esteem diri. sape setuju angkat tangan! hehe whitney houston mesti sukung am sbb die nyanyi "when u got frens to wish u well there comes a point when u will exhale". hehe. bottom line, everytime tit tit tit berbunyik, kite kene ingat slalu to count our blessings (hehe e.g ada famili yang bahagia, ade soulmate dan kekwn tersayang.. etc etc aaa) instead of feeling sorry utk diri sendiri utk flaws yg ade. kan? tit tit tit bole dihindari dgn menjeritkan satu word ke dalam otak i.e. SYUKUR! haha cakap memang aa senang, praktikalnye?! tapi then again, itula besnye ade kekwn.. to sing back our song kat kite when we've forgotten the words..
emo baggage? aritu a fren of mine wrote to me pasal camne die heran dan kagum kat ppl yg bole move on dlm idup tanpa pikir blk apa yg penah berlaku in the past, i.e tanpa sume emo-baggage-thingy tu. she was not referring to me particularly, tapi somehow i can relate jugak kat situ. hehe. the reason (utk tidak membawa beban emosi ke dalam idup masa kini) is simple: kite tak tahu sampai bile kite idup. makanye kite kenela cube idup sebaik dan sebahagia yang mungkin. kalo nak pikir sgt pasal masa silam.. nak rase emo-emo lebeh2, salahkan org lain atas pe yg blaku kat kite etc etc, camne la nak bahagia?! yg penting diri kite sendiri kite bebaskan diri dr cengkaman cite lama. beban emosi hanye akan mengundang bengkak kat hati, maka ia perlu ditinggalkan kat belakang. mr alfred suke kata "burn the bridge" jadi bakarlah (bukan in literal sense ye) sume yg dah lepas. sure, simpanla memori indah2 buat undang senyum + pengajaran2 yg kite dpt dr kesilapan2 yg penah dibuat. moi for instance, takmo dah pandang blkg, tuding jari sapa salah sapa betol, sindrom2 "die ruined my life" sbb am sedar yg camne pon fungsi org lain dlm keadaan2 yg am was put into, am mmg ade sket (kalo tak byk) role dlm tu.. for letting whoever they are la to treat me such way. salah saye juge. maka utk idup dgn gembire, buangla mende2 busuk dlm ati camtu. hehe. read an interesting article yesterday (weh besnye) tajuk 'is your man paying for your ex's sin?' artikel ni cite pasal idup pas break up sebenanye.. die kata getting over is not about seeking revenge. betolla tu. sbb dendam.. as sweet as it could be.. undang sengsara kat diri sendiri gak. maka the best way is to feel indifferent.. you wake up one day and think "i really cared about that?!" dan kite akan gelak kat diri sendiri sbb kite tahu worthless sgt dendam2 nih. baik buat tak tahu jek. instead of rase tak sonok, hati bengkak, imaginasi2 'what if', kite akan move on dalam idup dgn gembire. insyaAllah..
this is for you dear.. heheh.. kita bersama mengejar mimpi terpisah sementara ku pasti suatu hari nanti cinta kita bersemi kembali menerangi kekal di taman hati walaupun jauh pandangan mata ku yakin kau kan tetap setia begitulah ku jua keikhlasan di jiwa dan cintaku hanyalah untukmu.. hahaha..
Wednesday, June 04, 2003
somewhere over the rainbow skies are blue...
waa baru pas tgk You've Got Mail skali lagi. switnye.. swit swit. sgt suke! baru sedar rupenye saya sgt suke meg ryan. slalu macam tu- as in slalu tak sedar tengah suke something (the other day lagi klaka sbb kekwn yg sedarkan yg am suke kaler beidge. ye ke? haha ye aa kot. byk noo barang kaler beidge) comelnye meg ryan tuh! die adalah antara few ppl yg bole nampak cantek dlm apa jua pakaian dan keadaan. mandy moore. lorelai gilmore. charlize theron. cameron diaz. zalia. sape lagi ek? ntahla itu je yang terlintas skang ni. some ppl adalah sgt lucky hahaha. itu sbbla ade lagu kata 'do not read beauty magazines. it would only make you feel ugly'. heh. others kenela berusaha sket. concealer? blusher? (sukenye cream blusher! simple dan finishing yg comel) lipstik? (tak suke haha) bla bla. nasib baik ade suatu magic bernama make up utk manusia yg tak born comel macam meg ryan. isy isy aritu dpt mel tajuk 'how men got fooled' tunjuk camne the right make up bole ubah sgt rupe seseorg. dr ugly duckling. pro touch: apply foundation yg tebal (urgh), lukis kening, conteng muke (rimas tak?) bla bla bla. verdict: catherine zeta look-alike. haha. sungguh ajaib. dalam CLEO this month ade article tajuk 'Alpha, Gamma or Betta: Which Girl Are You?' kajian bermula oleh Dr. Jane Goodall bahawa chimps betina (pd 60's) adalah sgt hostile to one another sampai bunuh competetitors' infants sbb cam nak tunjuk power aah. huh? jahatnye! researchers panggil ini sbg alpha behaviour (the 1st letter in Greek alphabet.. tula pasal) hence, apply ni utk para wanita.. kite adalah unik, tapi dalam food chain of life, we are divided into 3 socially-driven groups iaitu alpha, betta dan gamma. i took the quiz n am adalah seorg gadis Gamma.. typical aa.. busan kot. haha. enjoy school sbb kwn2. popularity is not my religion, tak aspire to alpha, tak care sapa yg in or out or pepe, apa yg important ialah what gamma girl does, bukan apa yg die appears to be. konfiden. intelligent. independent. analoginye ialah she knows where the newest "in" bar, tapi prefer to shoot pool at the dingy local club dgn kekwn. haha busannye saya. hahahaha. takpe aa saya suke idup saya. hmm artikel ni kata penting utk kite sedar our place in society. maybela kot. haha. smalam borak ngan neq yan. sonok sgt. comelnye die ngan aleq! alololo perfect aa korang. haha bes bes. smuge bahagia sampai syurga! hmm some day I'll wish upon a star and wake up where the clouds are far behind me where troubles melt like lemondrops away above the chimney tops.. that's where you'll find me. lalalalala..
waa baru pas tgk You've Got Mail skali lagi. switnye.. swit swit. sgt suke! baru sedar rupenye saya sgt suke meg ryan. slalu macam tu- as in slalu tak sedar tengah suke something (the other day lagi klaka sbb kekwn yg sedarkan yg am suke kaler beidge. ye ke? haha ye aa kot. byk noo barang kaler beidge) comelnye meg ryan tuh! die adalah antara few ppl yg bole nampak cantek dlm apa jua pakaian dan keadaan. mandy moore. lorelai gilmore. charlize theron. cameron diaz. zalia. sape lagi ek? ntahla itu je yang terlintas skang ni. some ppl adalah sgt lucky hahaha. itu sbbla ade lagu kata 'do not read beauty magazines. it would only make you feel ugly'. heh. others kenela berusaha sket. concealer? blusher? (sukenye cream blusher! simple dan finishing yg comel) lipstik? (tak suke haha) bla bla. nasib baik ade suatu magic bernama make up utk manusia yg tak born comel macam meg ryan. isy isy aritu dpt mel tajuk 'how men got fooled' tunjuk camne the right make up bole ubah sgt rupe seseorg. dr ugly duckling. pro touch: apply foundation yg tebal (urgh), lukis kening, conteng muke (rimas tak?) bla bla bla. verdict: catherine zeta look-alike. haha. sungguh ajaib. dalam CLEO this month ade article tajuk 'Alpha, Gamma or Betta: Which Girl Are You?' kajian bermula oleh Dr. Jane Goodall bahawa chimps betina (pd 60's) adalah sgt hostile to one another sampai bunuh competetitors' infants sbb cam nak tunjuk power aah. huh? jahatnye! researchers panggil ini sbg alpha behaviour (the 1st letter in Greek alphabet.. tula pasal) hence, apply ni utk para wanita.. kite adalah unik, tapi dalam food chain of life, we are divided into 3 socially-driven groups iaitu alpha, betta dan gamma. i took the quiz n am adalah seorg gadis Gamma.. typical aa.. busan kot. haha. enjoy school sbb kwn2. popularity is not my religion, tak aspire to alpha, tak care sapa yg in or out or pepe, apa yg important ialah what gamma girl does, bukan apa yg die appears to be. konfiden. intelligent. independent. analoginye ialah she knows where the newest "in" bar, tapi prefer to shoot pool at the dingy local club dgn kekwn. haha busannye saya. hahahaha. takpe aa saya suke idup saya. hmm artikel ni kata penting utk kite sedar our place in society. maybela kot. haha. smalam borak ngan neq yan. sonok sgt. comelnye die ngan aleq! alololo perfect aa korang. haha bes bes. smuge bahagia sampai syurga! hmm some day I'll wish upon a star and wake up where the clouds are far behind me where troubles melt like lemondrops away above the chimney tops.. that's where you'll find me. lalalalala..
Monday, June 02, 2003
Draco Dormiens Nunquam Titillandus
haha hogwartsnye motto. jangan tickle dragon yg tengah tido! cute cute. yummy comeynye baby tee hogwarts, griffindor etc kat FOS tuh (nak nak!) tapi tak worth it la. almahalun. hehe. waa sedapnye lagu die dediket kat orang tuh sob sob sob sedeynye. besh! maceh : ) smlm gi wedding akak sedaraku kak nita. waa wedding dalam taman. swit. cume kurang bunge-bungaan jek. tp all in all majlisnye bes (penuh teknologi juge heh), swit, indah, lagu2 sume bes (e.g: the way you look tonight, my girl, can't take my eyes off of you, from this moment etc aa pandai kak neem buat list lagu!), daging dendeng sedap. bes aa. yg besnye jugak sebab wedding ni ramai gile sedara yg besh berkumpul kat umah am.. cousins sume ade (except ct yg xm arini, gudlak babeh!), ye aa sbb U byk yg masih hol plus skool holiday skang. dr sekecik-kecik irfan daniel sampaila ke sebesa-besa kakyong. sonoknye. waa bes aa lagu azimat cintanye lyrics. "walau tidak dibasahi hujan namun tempiasnya menyegarkan, biarpun rembulan tidak di ribaan namun cahayanya cukup menerangi bayangan" pergh meaningful gile. result dah nak kuar. takpe aa, leteh dah takut, prepare untuk the worst sajela (BEL oo BEL).. hopefullynye baguihla. amiin. hmm die blaja phylosophy kata legislature keje die buat law. judges keje die ikut saje law yg dah buat tuh. tapi sebenanye tu pahaman asas saje. mane bole judges main ikut jek sbb mane ade undang2 yg perfect. so judges sepatutnye dr mase ke mase lebeh creative macam Lord Denning (huwaa cintenye kat mamat ni.. ensem ek far?! haha main reka aje) kenela adjust sket, etc etc utk sesuaikan dgn keadaan, n yang plg penting ialah, undang2 ni tujuan die nak seek justice, so.. aim utk itula. kalo law tu macam berat seblah ke.. tak cukup adil ke.. terpulangla pada judges punye discretion (sbb diorg berhak) utk judge camne yg they think fit la. macam kat mesia ni, land law la cthnye, adelah tak lengkap kekdg tu, esp bile involve remedies. w'pon undang2 basic kata: takleh import english law, tp camtula.. discretion judges, nak import equitable priciples ke etc. sbb pepepon, aimnye adalah justice n protection kpd manusia yg innocent. maka, prinsip asas yg die blaja kat phylosphy tu.. betolla.. cume takla rigid noo camtu. haha tetibe membebel legal issue lak kat sini. nak setat sem balikla katakan. refresh balik otak yg sonok sgt kene pamper.. biaaase tu! hehe. hermione, pinjam otak!!!
haha hogwartsnye motto. jangan tickle dragon yg tengah tido! cute cute. yummy comeynye baby tee hogwarts, griffindor etc kat FOS tuh (nak nak!) tapi tak worth it la. almahalun. hehe. waa sedapnye lagu die dediket kat orang tuh sob sob sob sedeynye. besh! maceh : ) smlm gi wedding akak sedaraku kak nita. waa wedding dalam taman. swit. cume kurang bunge-bungaan jek. tp all in all majlisnye bes (penuh teknologi juge heh), swit, indah, lagu2 sume bes (e.g: the way you look tonight, my girl, can't take my eyes off of you, from this moment etc aa pandai kak neem buat list lagu!), daging dendeng sedap. bes aa. yg besnye jugak sebab wedding ni ramai gile sedara yg besh berkumpul kat umah am.. cousins sume ade (except ct yg xm arini, gudlak babeh!), ye aa sbb U byk yg masih hol plus skool holiday skang. dr sekecik-kecik irfan daniel sampaila ke sebesa-besa kakyong. sonoknye. waa bes aa lagu azimat cintanye lyrics. "walau tidak dibasahi hujan namun tempiasnya menyegarkan, biarpun rembulan tidak di ribaan namun cahayanya cukup menerangi bayangan" pergh meaningful gile. result dah nak kuar. takpe aa, leteh dah takut, prepare untuk the worst sajela (BEL oo BEL).. hopefullynye baguihla. amiin. hmm die blaja phylosophy kata legislature keje die buat law. judges keje die ikut saje law yg dah buat tuh. tapi sebenanye tu pahaman asas saje. mane bole judges main ikut jek sbb mane ade undang2 yg perfect. so judges sepatutnye dr mase ke mase lebeh creative macam Lord Denning (huwaa cintenye kat mamat ni.. ensem ek far?! haha main reka aje) kenela adjust sket, etc etc utk sesuaikan dgn keadaan, n yang plg penting ialah, undang2 ni tujuan die nak seek justice, so.. aim utk itula. kalo law tu macam berat seblah ke.. tak cukup adil ke.. terpulangla pada judges punye discretion (sbb diorg berhak) utk judge camne yg they think fit la. macam kat mesia ni, land law la cthnye, adelah tak lengkap kekdg tu, esp bile involve remedies. w'pon undang2 basic kata: takleh import english law, tp camtula.. discretion judges, nak import equitable priciples ke etc. sbb pepepon, aimnye adalah justice n protection kpd manusia yg innocent. maka, prinsip asas yg die blaja kat phylosphy tu.. betolla.. cume takla rigid noo camtu. haha tetibe membebel legal issue lak kat sini. nak setat sem balikla katakan. refresh balik otak yg sonok sgt kene pamper.. biaaase tu! hehe. hermione, pinjam otak!!!
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